/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>9581
change yo resolver!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to get a PO box, far too many times packages have been kicked back, my x60 was meant to be here days ago. but because i live in the middle of nowhere i get fucked over.

>>9515
Why would you install Linux Mint of all distros? All of Cinnamon's tool have caused random ass freezes on my laptop (which is modern and has 16gbs of ram), sure it is still usable but now I can't install things via a gui thanks to the fact it randomly freezes.

Compare that to MX Linux and shit just works, even the tools maintained by the devs work well even on "old" hardware. Only downside is I can't play pirated Linux games as the cracker I rely on has GTK3 dependency.

>>9595
>Why would you install Linux Mint
it was recommended to me by someone i trust, since they know im not very well versed in linux.

ive gone through tons of distros since, and now use mint on an older mini-pc.

my t470 runs kde plasma, x280 runs popOS and after much trial and error im using manjaro on my desktop.

>>9596
Linu

if anyone is interested, ive been documenting my trip down the Linux rabbit hole:
https://youtu.be/NmuYQnQGCgI
also, the x60 arrived, as did the charger.
tommorow my ThinkCentre monitor will arrive so i can match the ThinkCentre mini-pc, full sized ThinkCentre PC and IBM+Lenovo ThinkPads.
next im either going to get another mini-pc or another x200 era ThinkPad.
>>9596
i uninstalled popOS and switched to Manjaro KDE like on my main desktop.

>>8166
I'll take the tea freak over the sheer nothingness that plagues most smaller imageboards nowadays. At least by posting something, no matter how inane it might seem, there's a chance a conversation could be started.

>>8113
came back to this thread reminiscing about old posts. many people have simply moved to spaces with more personal freedom like private discord servers and such. it's quite sad to think that through the way many imageboards were handled the chan culture has been thoroughly destroyed. i miss shouting into the anonymous nothingness.

Imageboards and chan culture is basically dead now. The only remotely active chan is 4chan, but that place is now a sad shell of its former self and populated entirely by newfag zooomers who never bothered lurking. I miss the pre-2016 internet ;_; everything is so boring now.

>>9600
I miss Pre-2016. Everything was just so much more hopeful. :(

>>9466
>>9600
A lot of people blame discord, and while I do agree that its apart of the equation, I think social media (such as twitter, instagram, etc) has played a bigger role in destroying online communities and niche websites. Why? Because outside of discord, those have become the de facto hub for internet discussion and are constantly devising a way to keep users on there algorithmically. Even places like youtube, once no more than simple video repository, has become algorithm hell dedicated to having you on there as long as humanly possible. Discord's main draw (and culprit responsible for destroying online communities) stems from its ability to have chatrooms with large amount of people and dedicated to communities, with utilities such as pins, announcements, dedicated channels for topics, etc. But it is only one part of the equation and doesn't explain the downfall of imageboards and niche forums in it's entirety. I genuinely believe social media has been much more destructive to the activity of niche sites, as it contains most of the problems of discord and more cancer to boot. Since the internet has been consolidated so much by social media, most normal people aren't willing to venture into the unknown that would've been mandatory to an internet user circa 2006 in order to find communities. Discord also functionally serves a different purpose as it is in more in line with a chatroom rather than a true discussion forum, which large scale chatrooms and applications have existed prior to discord without the decay of niche websites.

Couple this with mobile apps constantly trying to get a piece of the community pie circa 2010-2016 and what we've been witnessing is a slow death of the internet as we know it. It's why it is vital to promote the communities that still exist away from the big tech conglomerates.

>>9587
I MEAN if you're prone to being paranoid and that people are out to get you, etc

>>9587
>hobby to really lose yourself into
that's what i'm working on

>>9590
r u ok?

I deleted my discord and haven't looked back

>>9598
why. why why why why why

>>8771
Understandable and respectable, fratello.

>>8762
He's going to get called that whether he likes it or not so might as well own it.

men say this and then have the most soulful personalities and then create evangelion

>>8793
ok, but i think it's weird to internalize it.

>>9556
i think it's weird that people play yume 2kki when .flow is better

>>8091
I don't actually have any problem leaving my house/room, I just don't have any friends or money to do anything.

this board is so bad to be on if you are a teen or young adult. especially if you are easily impressionable and think hikkineets are cool. brainworms. also absorbing other's miserable thoughts. it's bad.

>>9540
It's a fansite for a game where some girl shuts herself in her apartment and has nightmares until she kills herself and there isn't much to the game other than to watch the girl go through trippy and fucked up trauma implications.
That will obviously gather a bunch of people from which a great many will be mentally ill, and for some reason they have a forum to discuss mental health of all things where most are likely not to be in a good place to give mental health tips to anybody.
Of damn course its not a place for kids or idiots. This site is as adults only as it gets.
On the bright side, it's fun.

>>9542
plump 13 year old pakistani fingers wrote this

>>7863
>school
i really really hate to be like this because gatekeeping doesn't help anyone but i feel like hikki communities are not the best place to ask for social advice in situations like this

Reading this was just like looking myself in the mirror. I started to feel paranoid and this over-self awareness about many things; especially if I need to do things outside. Feeling this sensation of being watched or recorded for no rational reason. I even talk alone so much, to the point that I think the objects around me are listening and having their own opinion. Social isolation in his overdrive I suppose.

>is it possible for loneliness and prolonged social isolation to cause psychotic symptoms? am i losing my mind?
yes to both, humans are inherently social creatures despite our attempts to tell ourselves otherwise. If you have a friend you can confide in, I would suggest talking to them at least a little bit (it could be about anything, even an online friend could suffice). I'd also suggest maybe going for a walk outside or changing your surrounding for a bit so you aren't caught up in the subtle monotony that can drive yourself insane when isolate. Even something as simple as cleaning your room or changing the curtains can go a long way.

As for the feeling of being stalked, I've been there and the best thing you can do is to repeat to yourself "its not true" and reminder yourself that you are but one person in a sea of a billion of people. While it may be true that some data firm is collecting your voting records, nobody truly cares to constantly record and track you. If that were the case, many petty criminals especially cyber criminals would be caught by now, there would constantly be a social worker at your doorstep at any given time, and society would have cameras watching us in the home (and no amazon and google products people willing put in their homes doesn't count, i'm talking legit gov Orwellian shit). The truth of the matter is that not only is that shit massively expensive and impractical for a gov (I've worked in gov, I know trust me) but its also a violation of privacy laws (which despite gov repeatedly trying to break with shit like the Patriot act and Prism, it always comes back to bite them in the ass and still many things slip under the radar because of the impracticality of it all). You aren't being watched, except for cookies on sites designed to advertise you useless shit and chances are you already most of that blocked with browser extensions. Just don't go on shady sites and align with shady people and you should be good.

It might be worth it to tell your psychiatrist about these delusions. At worst you could be schizophrenic, at best you could just be very autistic. I'm not a therapist or a psych medicine person though, I'm just an anon with too much free time.

yess but it got better for me after stopping some meds and i think if i talk to people more itll get better. (idk if recommended for people here)

sounds like depression

>>9534
oh yeah about that to clarify for further discussion i am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and nearly dropped out of high school because of it

I think what it comes down to, and this might not sound helpful/easier said than done, is just resisting the urge. i guess "resisting the other side of you" in this instance. it'll be extremely uncomfortable but you can't have anything if you don't try for it. little by little of course, don't force yourself too hard in the beginning or you will fall back. it sounds like your mother is pretty much giving you baby steps so try your hardest to go along with her for now and then work your way up. maybe to not immediately go NEET mode again, you could hang out with her a little longer each time you do something together, like a chat after putting away the groceries or what have you or talking about the food you guys made and considering other recipes. hope this doesn't sound too reddit, i believe in you anon-chan

the reason why you kinda dont want to get out of this subconsciously is most likely because that is simply what you have become used to. isolation is your everyday life since probably quite a long time and getting out of your comfort zone is extremely hard but definitely possible. so yeah do what anon said, push yourself through with it, the fact that your mother acknowledges your problem and offers you subtle help is giving you a big advantage in terms of healing. accept her help, do not dump it in the trash just cause youre afraid or because it seems difficult. thats one of the reasons why many people (including me) stay stuck forever.