/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>9849
>If someone thinks you're not, it must be your voice or something.
i get clocked without speaking or even moving
>Are you sure they can even tell?
they can always tell
>>9821
notes from the underground - dostoevsky

>>9715
if you know youre a dumbass why are you still posting, what do you expect to happen ?

Are you Lain bro? But seriously i love you man

>>9704

Please let's be friend anon <3

>>9868
holy fucking newfag lurk moar ninja

hmm

not everyone wants to be a normalfag.

can you tell me more about your friend, i think i know him

>>9872
How so? OP's description is so generic it could be anyone.

>>9873
you're right it's too generic. nevermind

>>9812
I once thought I was that alone, but it turned out that I'd also neglected some people I could've been closer with. I reached out and some people just ghosted me, but I made some new old friends too.
What people's phone numbers do you have saved?
Would you call any of them?
My cousin often gets drunk and calls me when he's in need of some kind words. I'm worried about his drinking but I'm glad he calls.

>>9851
>What people's phone numbers do you have saved?
I don't have a phone.

>>9852
without a phone you will get absolutely nowhere in terms of socializing these days anon

ya life terrible dork boy

>>9853
Mobile phones are absolutely malicious devices and it's better to be a total outcast than be a slave to those wire taps.

>>9733
Honestly, while delivery driver isn't necessarily the most experience filled job, you can basically put on your resume that you have customer service experience and willingness to travel for work. You can also fluff it up a bit and say you have experience driving for a work place environment and you know your way around the town/city. Employers like with you phrase it like that. Hell one of things that got me my current job was experience with DoorDash of all things.

>>9749
what is your current job sks????? iwanna know… also which danganronpa character is your favourite

ok update ive started delivering piss a… its nice having money i guess. depending on what sks thinks i should get ill either get a tsr box or the doctor who precons. or maybe i'll save my money. who knows.

but honestly having some semblance of routine back in my life has only served to make things feel by contrast more depressing and banal than before. its really scary to think that i'll never actually be happy. i think things would be a lot easier if i had some friends, but i don't really like socialising outside of card games all that much anyway, and i have a really hard time connecting with people if i don't a) have a common interest or b) i can't talk to them one-on-one. honestly i think having a girlfriend or boyfriend or whatever would really help but i think real people are kind of icky and there would automatically be the expectation of romantic or sexual escalation. plus outside of anime, doctor who, or danganronpa fanfiction, having a waifu or hasubando seems really corny and not actually at all fulfilling

i'll try going back to school or college next year, even if i will stick out like a sore thumb. but seeing how little difference having a job has made, i doubt learning or socialising will do much, either.

any advice? i would really love to know if there's literally any point in keeping my hopes up or if everything is just gonna be this shit forever.

>>9822
i also just genuinely really hate my life and i don't like myself enough to fix it

>>9828
I THINK MY boss has maybe fired me. shadow-fired me. like a shadow-ban. i'm so fucking sick of indians man he smells like shit and communicates awfully and makes it everyone else's problem but I feel like a failure nonetheless. i was hoping to have a bit more money for my trip to japan but he hasn't given me any shifts this week. i'm worried about letting the people down in my life. i'm so fucking pissed. i hate indians so fucking much dude.

>>9857
>She is interesting
>I don't know why
It's normal to be interested in sweet people who are nice to you. I assure you that you'll meet many more.
>I wish I was better at interacting
>Maybe I could reach that point
You certainly can. Social skills are a matter of practise, like every other skill. The more you interact with people, the better you'll get, even if you fuck up a lot. It's all part of the process.
>It doesn't feel like it
Process usually isn't a dramatic leap, but once you've gotten further, there'll be a point where you can look back and really see that you've gotten much better at social interactions. That's how it was for me. I'm not super good at this stuff either but it's a huge difference from how I used to be.

>>9858
If that's how you interact with people, what does that make you? Uno reverse, fucker.
>>9859
True.

I was straight up in love with my previous therapist. I stalked her on every social media profile I could find: pinterest, spotify, her sisters instagram - anything. I would have butterflies when she entered sessions. I dreamt about her. I would find porn with women that looked like her to jerk off to. I jerked off to her psychology today profile (low point). I was devastated when I found out she was engaged to get married. But still, I remained delusional. Then, our second to last session… we talked about fantasy, delusions. My annoying trait of creating and conversing with versions of people I know in real life in my head. I realized so much of my life was spent with these versions of people. They weren't reality, just my sad attempt at controlling peoples narratives of me. I decided to stop having convos with people in my head - these imagined convos were effecting me negatively; shaping how I saw those people in real life when they had never expressed those opinions to me. My therapist was included in this. Overnight the fervency of the crush died down. The next session (our last) was weird, and I think she must have felt it too. I never scheduled another session.

It's weird, reflecting on our time, it feels like a relationship. It activates the same part of my brain that tingles when I think about exes…

>>9862
LMAO u suck, the cocksuckers are going to have a hard time singing your praises after this

She played her Spotify playlist today and I liked every single song. I knew at least half of them by name or Artist name. Why is God tormenting me like this?

>>9539
op here, i have been on virtually every main antidepressant and nothing has ever worked

>>9611
Me too OP. Mental health services told me it's an issue with my life instead.

Some suspect I have bpd, I've been having paranoid delusions and also hallucinations worsening a few months ago. My theory is it may be because of a lack of stimulation. Humans aren't supposed to be alone this long

>>9659
>My theory is it may be because of a lack of stimulation. Humans aren't supposed to be alone this long
this is the exact same thing that's happening to me, or atleast i think it is

>is anyone else here beginning to develop something to the effect of paranoia and delusions after prolonged social isolation?

starting from a few months ago i am 100% certain that ive been "shadowed/followed from the front" three times with some sort of 'message' . not sure what he/they want to get across though

>>9636
Realistically, how much could I make from this?

>>9649
Not much really. Depends on your strategy though, it would probably be hard to make serious money with it *now*, but if you circumvent stock agencies and go directly to buyers… maybe in the low hundreds (of dollars)

I do surveys. Five Surveys and Prime Opinion are all from the same company. they're legit and even gave ACH if you prefer that.

I've recently also been trying out those "Play Games and Earn Money" apps. I use Prizeplay and it's easy to make over a dollar on there within its 3 hour limit. I'd say just pick a mindless game from their catalogue, download it, and play it. It offers prepaid cards, gift cards and PayPal payments. I haven't cashed out my 1 dollar yet but I should to see if it even works. They said they'll just email your earnings.

Anything else remote and isolating requires some skill, like coding or knowing how to draw. But anyone can do that if they put their time and effort into it.

>>9652
did you manage to earn anything yet?

>>9631
>small source of income
Idk about online income, but my first thoughts are
- Donating blood and plasma
- Pet care (Dog-walking, cat-sitting, fish-feeding)
- Tutoring
- Commissions
>Realized
Cat sitting. I do it every now and then and it's pretty neat.
I use the app Cat in a Flat https://catinaflat.com/ which makes you use Stripe for payment which I initially thought was a bit annoying but it does make the transactions feel more secure. The cat sitting app itself also takes a fee from what you earn. Overall, you'll lose 20% percent of the money you earn to a service charge, which you have to keep in mind when you set your prices. (Once you have a client, you could theoretically also do business without the app, although it's against terms of service I think).
>alone
>from home
You have to meet up with the cats' owners ofc and also send them regular updates (via WhatsApp where I'm from) with photos of the cats and you also won't be in your home but in theirs… But for me, it was really relaxing, it was basically just me going to someone's home nearby, meeting them once and then getting to chill at their place with the cats. You only have to be there for like an hour (or was it 40 minutes? it's in the contract) for every visit and do all of the cat care duties ofc, but I often stayed a bit longer. My regular client pays me to stay the night, so it's just me chilling with these adorable cats all day, taking photos, doing cat care but mostly doing unrelated stuff on my laptop while petting the cats. My regular client has a nice kitchen, shower and really comfy bed and also leaves snacks for me, I just gotta vacuum in return before they get back and it's cool, they also pay pretty well.
>All day? No way
You can also just do the 40 minute visits, you decide on the times with the pet owners afterall.
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>>9680
hI SKS I LOVE YOU PLEASE SAY HELLO BACK

>>9681
Hello

>>9681
hi

>>9689
hello please marry me sks i love you and then we can commit jihad against the other mods please respond

OP here, he has confessed to me, im very happy