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actual quality content? thank you for blessing us.

>>5235
"actual quality content? thank you for blessing us."
>sages post
¿que?

>>5236
so

wow i love it so cute

best yume nikki video I've seen in a long while.

>>5192
got a lil' clever with the book she's reading
>>5221
thanks! i show up on 4chan /v/ drawthreads from time to time.

>>5222
Aw, shame there's no other place to follow you like pixiv or twitter. I'll start lurking the drawthreads now looking for your stuff now then. Also, what's the book about/referencing?

It's also my first time making a request since I feel like it's taking advantage of a talented artist like you, but I'll give it a shot. Mado eating a cheezy pizza like picrel, with a darker colored background like your last pic

>>5222
Oh my dear anon, what a lovely drawing …..:'^)

Holy shit, a good artist that accepts requests for free? Splendid!

I require Monoe, sitting in front of her PC, wearing police uniform, doing her best at wasting time on the internet by browsing Uboachan. Big monochrome sister is watching you, anon.

>>5239
id f**k big police sister monoe

brb

>>23013
we have a >>rec board anon

>>23013
Wow that's great, happy for you anon. What subject are you doing? Do you think I'd get similar treatment for being schizotypal or is that not as sexy as autism to universities? I'm a couple of years late but if I have the chance to apply a little bit above my grades then uni might be worth it.

>>23015
>>>/rec/ is there to be a centre of discussion of recovery, it's not a containment board for any mentions of recovering.

>>23021
anon here. I’m doing media studies and creative writing! Honestly I think part of it was because those courses aren’t the most taken and they kinda just need anyone.
Autism is a little more…well known?? That’s the best way to put it so universities might be a little more inclined to it than schizotypical disorders, but honestly I can imagine them letting anyone with a ‘this dude got a fucked up brain’ condition in and about.

If I had to give any advice on whether you should go or not, it’s that uni seems to be what you make of it. Applying yourself is like. The big thing, yk? Just, make sure you do a course you’re passionate about. Make damn sure you do that. You’re spending a couple grand on the experience so at least do something you like.

If you do end up going for the uni route, good luck!! academia is a nightmare but it’s one I’m fully enjoying so far

and yeah I had no idea why I was being pushed towards the >>> rec board, this isn’t really a recovery post, more just a ‘heheheh I’m doing stuff’ post

Good luck with your studies at uni, I guess. Make the most out of it.

>>359
hot

id fuck her

im going to japan soon

How are you certain of having SzPD? I don't intend to make this sound like a loaded question but what was your childhood like and what's the earliest age you point to of exhibiting introverted tendencies or being unable to socialize normally?

Yes, I have that. It was pretty miserable right out of high school and attempted suicide (poorly) once when I was contemplating the kind of existence it would be working some boring shit job eight hours a day for decades while having nothing to really draw much enjoyment from in life. That was 7 or so years ago, and my situation has improved a decent amount since. I can give more details if you want to know anything in specific.

>>7527
I was a pretty normal kid until around the age of 11-13. The most obvious 'symptom' was that I stopped going to parties: little gatherings and birthday parties were very common, but I found that I didn't enjoy them at all. I got along with people just fine, and the entire class was small and close knit, but I just got nothing out of it, and it was tiring to talk to people or be in crowds. Started refusing invitations (this was received suitably as 'strange' by peers and my parents but nobody made too big a deal out of it at the time).
Second obvious symptom was a complete lack of interest in relationships and women. Never had it, even at the age when the hormones are supposed to be at their highest. Well, there was one minor incident at age 11 around the time I was just stopping going to parties, but I'm pretty sure that was due to peer pressure, and there has never been any kind of urge since.

From then on I kept the 3 closest friends I'd made until the end of high school, and we were still close for that entire period, although I never 'missed' them or social interaction when I went without it. Nor did I ever feel compelled to contact them once high school ended. I've had no close relationships since, and have also mostly distanced myself from my family.

>>7528
I agree with the poster who says there's wires in the brain that are crossed "abnormally". And that while symptoms may line up with your experience and feelings it isn't nuanced enough to be sure, and I certainly don't trust any psychologist or psychiatrist to be honest or not themselves drugged-up. It says (on Wikipedia) you're born with SzPD which is why I asked for what age symptoms started. There are parallel disorders like negative schizophrenia, which eats at your personality and cranial function without the hallucinations, and leaves you apathetic towards reality, making human connections, and sex though I don't think SzPD decays you by itself as you already start at a "low point". SzPD is quite rare as a diagnosis though those who have it are fine with it or don't care for seeing mental health workers, so even on places as niche as this I question how common it is but it is somewhat plausible for 10-300 schizoids or similar gather on obscure imageboards. It couldn't be anything mentally "wrong" with us to begin with but just the internet's effects on societies and the current world order falling apart impacting our behaviors and morals and etc. because of what we find to be a proper reaction, like there's no future to look forward to.
>I can give more details if you want to know anything in specific.
What would you hope to get out of it.

>>7529
>What would you hope to get out of it.
Not much. It's just something I've never talked to people about in any depth, so I wanted to. Putting thoughts to text helps organize them. Plus it's a way to spend some time.
You can say these are selfish posts, since they're half written for myself.

> It says (on Wikipedia) you're born with SzPD which is why I asked for what age symptoms started
Really? I see onset listed at late childhood/adolescence, which tracks.

> It couldn't be anything mentally "wrong" with us to begin with but just the internet's effects on societies and the current world order falling apart impacting our behaviors and morals and etc. because of what we find to be a proper reaction, like there's no future to look forward to.
I don't think so. In my case, and by induction in the general case of szpd, I'm confident it falls far into the 'nature' end of the nature-nurture spectrum. I wrote out a whole spiel delineating the reasons I think so but it got real long and boring, so just believe me.

> so even on places as niche as this I question how common it is but it is somewhat plausible for 10-300 schizoids or similar gather on obscure imageboards.
You probably won't find many gatherings of schizoids, for obvious reasons. I've never seen one. But you might find more of them in this kind of place by chance than you would in a random sample of the population.

Regarding the issue of whether it's really a 'disorder', it's a nuanced problem. It's demonstrably made my life harder in the past to the point I can't in good conscience call it a bogus diagnosis, but even at my worst point I don't think I would've wanted 'treatment' to become more psychologically normal. And once you have a handle on exactly how you're different and have developed strategies, I've found the downsides navigable enough.
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>>7531
I've read quite a lot of bores so yours can't be drudging as I'm interested in what you have to say and also because if I might have it. I have the "symptoms" to a T and don't think anything's necessarily wrong with me for having them but am still amicable towards the act of befriending and used to be a talkative person who cracked jokes (not that I was sunshine), though looking back at when I was homeschooled I would've been comfortable not saying anything to anyone and that I didn't want to be lonely hence why I forced myself to talk but that could just be me ignoring my gut to stop seeking others' approval. A lot of my morality may just come off as having it as well, and I don't know what came first and if it came subconsciously. I deduced I could be a sperg, negative schizo, depressed, a mere moody sycophant, etc. so I'd like to hear how you feel. The company I keep could've also made me one manually so maybe I was nurtured into it and therefore not really have it, or I surrounded myself with such people in the first place because our frequencies blended better. I'm playing up the disorder like it's supposed to fit into this box and personality that normal people who don't understand view it as which is obnoxious and insufferable but for the sake of covering all angles and its guidelines I muse. I know this post is garbage because I've recently been mindfucked. I want to know for myself if I have it because I am only a human and therefore can be quantified and understood better, not because I want a label.

>>277
What is this from?

>>356
Pumpkin Night

id f uck her

>>7533
My situation is a bit different from yours, but I relate a lot to the hyper co-dependency and running away a from relationship and into another. Cultivating a sense of apathy can help shield you against toxic relationships, but it comes with the cost of everything feeling transient. Not sure how I can help, but I'm here if you want to talk - AngelSyrup#4138

Nice drawing, I hope things get better for you soon ♡

>>7534
Thank you ; w ;
I added you so we can talk.

>>7533
>>7534
Hello you two.

I can't relate to what you have been through, but I wanted to say that I am glad that you don't put up with abusive relationships. This only makes you worse, so always get away from that.
You >>7533 say that you can move in with your family. If you are on good terms with them, then I would take that offer. It can help you gain some sense of stability again and you won't be beaten. Maybe you can even start to work a little, maybe to save for the future? Or do you feel like you need therapy? Perhaps then you can try to move in together with somebody again, when you are in a better situation. Hopefully >>7534 has a family who is willing to support too.
I am not from the USA so I can't really extend a hand to you two, but your story really makes me to give you a hug. Good luck to you.

sounds like too much of a stretch to me, could make sense in a vaccuum when you can cherry pick points and find a way to make it fit, but i think when you look at the game as a whole motherhood doesnt really fit the most likely interpertations.

hm. this is interesting

legit apply that to poniko and it's literally the plot of the light novel>
"i am not in your dream", in which madotsuki represents poniko's unborn daughter>
literally i never thought anybody would ever in a million years have that interpretation

>>9718
hot

I really like this one. Specially if some of the npcs like poniko or monoe represent what she thinks her daughter would look like. Being anxious about their well-being in this world would only be natural.

>>1256
Get out

>>254
What is the story behind the spooder girl in the gif?

Also does it have an OnlyFans account?











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>>324
It's Metal Gear

>>254
hot

>>7448
Is it easier to get a boyfriend than a girlfriend, or are other men just as selective in who they prefer?

I was bullied, not just by kids but also by their parents, for having ADHD. Back then, at least where I'm from, ADHD was seen as some sort of infectious disease and so it was very common for me to make a friend and then their parent telling them to not just stop talking to me, but also to make fun of me and bully me. This resulted in me having to change schools several times, also me pissing myself in class from being bullied too much a few times, throwing up a lot both because of being bullied and also health issues in class, and just generally just being made a fool of a lot. This also extended outsid of school in places I would typical frequent (I used to like swimming a lot so we went to this swimming club a lot) in which I would again be made a fool out of by the same people who would also get kids who were my friends to turn against me. This lasted for a while but eventually I transferred to a school in which this stopped happening.

Then the school, and furthermore my countries government, assigned me a teacher assistance to follow me around for every single class I took as part of a new assisted learning program in which I was patient 0 of. This stuck with me until I was around 16. I'll be honest with you, I loved 90% of the teachers they gave, and they really helped me with a lot, but with that also came a lot of bullying for being seen as a retard. I didn't really have any friends during this time

Sometime around 10 I got my first computer, found 4chan (unlucky) and went from a super fit swimchad into an obese hardcore introvert within a year. While I wasn't bullied hard or anything at this time people also used to throw trash at me (i guess because i was a social reject?) When I was about 14 I finally made a group of friends and even a few people I considered best friends.

When I was 15 one of these best friends raped me. When I told another best friend of mine after he kept asking what was wrong he later got drunk at a massive party and seemingly told my whole school. I don't think I really need to tell you what happened as a result.

When I was 16 I went to another school where I made a decent group of friends, who later would influence me to do an assortment of drugs (mostly weed but also psychs, 2cb, ket, etc) which resulted in me now having schizoaffective disorder and my doctor telling me if I were to ever do another psychadelic again I will end up full blown schizophrenic.

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holy shit I've been looking for a thread like this. I'm obsessing over the past. I worry that even if i become the president or something crazy like that, people will find out about my past and destroy all that I will have accomplished up to that point. This is why I have no ambition.

Don't really have it in me to write anything long-winded at the moment, but I struggle with daily things normal people find effortless and it sucks, especially at my age. I've only kind of learned to conceal it and play it cool, but this base incompetence follows me around no matter where I go it seems like.

Embarrassment is a huge set off for me. Spent a lot of my childhood as a non masking autistic and I ended up getting in a lot of shit situations because people could point at me and say ‘yep that’s definitely an autistic.

must’ve been in like fourth grade when I realised I had forgotten one day that it was own clothes day (uniformed school lel) and everyone else had come in their clothes while I was in my uniform. Ended up having a huge meltdown in the street because of my embarrassment, got stared at loads.
Own clothes days have set me off ever since, I even broke down in twelfth grade when I realised I had done it again and I had to go home because I was crying so much.

I still don’t know how to deal with it, since embarrassment kind of comes pre packaged with being autistic in such a society. Getting jeered at, stared at, wondering why you’re so different.

Embarrassments just never been my favorite feeling in the world

>>15484
Fantastic

I'm so glad to see these guys being loved
I made this one of them before but haven't gotten around to any others

finally baking it now!
let's hope they don't explode or something…

>>424
That's still probably a better job at sculpting than I could do XD

>>434
They've been in the oven a pretty long time now, dude.
I think they might actually have exploded.

bump

jimmy

jimmy

jimmy

is this it
doesnt feel like it

Now jimming this thread.