/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

sounds like depression

>>9534
oh yeah about that to clarify for further discussion i am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and nearly dropped out of high school because of it

I think what it comes down to, and this might not sound helpful/easier said than done, is just resisting the urge. i guess "resisting the other side of you" in this instance. it'll be extremely uncomfortable but you can't have anything if you don't try for it. little by little of course, don't force yourself too hard in the beginning or you will fall back. it sounds like your mother is pretty much giving you baby steps so try your hardest to go along with her for now and then work your way up. maybe to not immediately go NEET mode again, you could hang out with her a little longer each time you do something together, like a chat after putting away the groceries or what have you or talking about the food you guys made and considering other recipes. hope this doesn't sound too reddit, i believe in you anon-chan

the reason why you kinda dont want to get out of this subconsciously is most likely because that is simply what you have become used to. isolation is your everyday life since probably quite a long time and getting out of your comfort zone is extremely hard but definitely possible. so yeah do what anon said, push yourself through with it, the fact that your mother acknowledges your problem and offers you subtle help is giving you a big advantage in terms of healing. accept her help, do not dump it in the trash just cause youre afraid or because it seems difficult. thats one of the reasons why many people (including me) stay stuck forever.

>>9423
he wants to be like a video game character.

what the ._.

Btw, i hope Balatro rlly good game

well, comparing them both, chihiro fujisaki has a milder personality while byakuya is more precise and sometimes blunt in his words. So try to be calmer, quieter, gentle.
you know, a submissive breedable twink

>>9519
im not wasting my money on pinkpills you shill

>>9423
Can you post tomoko_disgust1.png (or tomoko_disgust.png) for me please

some time ago I talked to my psychologist, I told her about my most recent attempt to end my life and other suicidal idealizations, she told me that there was a dysregulation with my emotions, that at the slightest bad situation I was already thinking in the extreme, between many words we determined that the origin of my problems was due to the environment that surrounded me and she was right, living with parents who were not mentally and economically stable is not the best for a child to develop, fights, beatings, alcohol, death threats, in addition to suffering bullying for a long time for not being generally neurotypical caused me to have suicidal thoughts with 11 years and many attempts in progress, currently: I do not feel very well but it could be much worse, I went back to smoking for a short period of time and I isolated myself in my room, it is not that I have relapsed completely, I just want to disconnect a little bit from everything to reflect on myself and try to improve somehow, I feel optimistic about it ngl

good luck anon

iu wonder what could be the context for this thread ? can someone confirm

>>9422
>>9412
>jobs
I've been trying to figure this shit out for the last couple days and I guess I might be a bit dumber than I thought. I don't know how to apply for a job. Also don't really know how I'd go to and from a job when I don't have a car. Could try to get something super close to me, but again… I'm so lost.

>>9462
Applying for a job is deceptively easy, you "just" need to get lucky.
As for the technical process itself, you need to send then a CV(curiculum vitae) and a copy(you can get these certified at any post office if you're a Euro like me, I have no idea how Americans do it) of the diploma from your highest level of education. In practice that means either a highschool diploma or a university diploma. If you have them, send them copies of any certificates you have as well. It doesn't have to be related to the job, you're just showing off your competence.
As for your resume, just open a word document and write out your basic info plus some bullet points about yourself.
- Social security number
- healthcare provider
- driving level (whether you can only drive cars, or heavier vehicles as well)
- where you went to school and what you studied
- what languages can you speak and on what level
…. etc.
Keep it brief, keep it simple. You shouldn't need more than a page or two. Graphical flourishes are optional. Templates are dogshit.

As for where to look for jobs near you, well… you 'can' just walk in and ask. They can't stop you from doing that. Places near you might have a website listed on Google maps and you can figure out the owner/manager's e-mail or phone number from there if you don't want to embarrass yourself for little gain. Beyond that, you can try finding some job listing sites. That's about it though.

>>9467
Thanks. I ended up just applying to a college instead. Productive procrastination. I'm thinking of going for accounting, even though it sounds absolutely soul sucking. I probably just want some peace of mind knowing I tried before 30.

I haven't draw anything on 2 months but keep imagining thousands of stories on my burnout head.

>>9479
Same, I'm going to try to atleast pan out make a story into reality just one just so I can say I tried

What sort of music, anon?

>>9471
Anything that can hold my interest I have a guitar I forgot to mention

actually switching tactic a bit, I struggle to talk to people and manage very normal basic social situations, when I do it is severely draining and/or does not leave me with any significant positive feelings or experiences worth remembering, I struggle to find the point in doing anything, I constantly fall in to bad habits of neglecting myself, the one person i felt comfortable with turned out to be a a selfish prick and i still havent gotten over him, im a tranny oversly conscious about my appearance but lacking the same ability and drive to do anything about it that keeps me from pursuiting anything susbstantial with music, i live with my parents who are nice enough that I can't justify leaving my dead body somewhere for them to find but have/are still abusive and ignorant to be a significant reason for why i feel so low and hopeless, what do you do when you spend over a year in therapy not sure what to talk about wrt any of that and just seeing what happens and having no progress come from it. I want to feel good about something, I want to learn something that will help me connect to other people, give me a creative outlet, make me feel useful. What do I do?

born to die

must be overthinking


im thinking most people who are well adjusted wouldnt even think 3 microseconds for a fucker

my antennas fried long time ago. i think im crazy sorry

>>9440
>feelking like a real dunce this should be the easiest industry in the fucking world yet i cant keep it because im a retard
How in the actual fuck is IT an "easy" industry? You're just saying that because you were blessed with a big brain with plenty of grey matter.
I can't help you with being a better people pleaser but I'd like to know how to learn server admin stuff. I'd like to run my own things on my own server but have no idea where to start learning this stuff

>>9468
Thanks.

try taking a structured approach. I would suggest comptia core + infrastructure then red hat (RHCSA). Find additional background material on your own

>>7904
Then those people are not worth your time and effort. Unless you have to deal with them, for example parents that let you live with them or co-workers that need to tolerate you somewhat. I do understand what you mean with the crowd, but group pressure, society, or however you want to call it, is always worth questioning. Should you give in or not? Is it necessary for you that they accept you? Do you gain something you need from that? How far do you relent? It may get lonely like that, but in my opinion it is better to be lonely alone than lonely among others that don't really know you.

>>7903
That's not the main point I was making. Regardless of if I should forgive myself or not for who I am and accept that there isn't a rulebook to have been properly human, I maybe could understand myself better if I know what SzPD is. Not that I'm privy to explaining away human behavior through quantification and materialism.

This video is interesting: https://youtube.com/watch?v=QjhB33SNJQc

I made a forum for schizoids as an experiment, come make some posts if that interests you:
https://schizoid.boards.net

I know about the chats and communities thread but I'd like people in THIS thread to see, and that one's mostly spam containment anyway.

>>8558
Womp womp.

very relatable post especially on the obsession bit.
are you genuinely attracted to them or perhaps its mere infatuation?

>>9384
are you a russky perchance? that really must suck then…

>>9385
Infatuation is more suitable. I liked them from the first year of our friendship, i didn't told them about feelings, so they think i like them as they like me

I feel you, I fall in love too easily and honestly sometimes I get obsessive over other people. The only thing I can recommend is put some distance and try to keep conversations light and cordial with the person. I also don't think its incel to be jealous over your friend spending time with others and not you and how that effects you. Obviously its not a good thing though and you may be expecting too much over the friendship. I find the best sort of relationships with people is usually mutual interest, and unfortunately some of the people we want to court may not be interested in us. It really sucks, especially when you find out you share a lot of interests with those people but a lot of times it is what it is. Maybe they'll change over time, don't expect it though, and focus on yourself and maybe breaking out of your shell a bit towards different, trustworthy people even if its just online. Find ways to cope without them being there in your life.

i hope the best for you, ubuu

>>9270
Have you ever considered that I'm standing up for myself by not believing in your philosophical political alignment compass bullshit that permeates modern political discourse? And again, I have my own views and my own philosophy on life (I have plainly stated that I am not a centrist multiple times ITT, despite defending them and their right to exist) but I am far from "passive" or a "doormat", and my view isn't that both sides have a point, but that both are worthy of critique and mockery despite the occasional validity of their respective points. The mainstream examples of political discourse (especially within my own country) do not reflect my own moral compass and my own values nor do they make any attempt to appeal to the every day person, despite their claims. I could go on and give some examples but this isn't the website for this and I'd rather not turn this place into a political shitshow.

I do agree with op that there is a force online trying to forcefully get trans and gay people to conceal themselves and their hobbies through gaslighting (particularly vomitive shitholes like soyjak party, which even hate anime of all things despite deriving from imageboard culture that derived from 4chan that derived from 2chan that derived from net otaku culture, etc etc) but I also very much dislike the labeling and identity games I feel a lot of people play that feels like it categorizes people as if they are genres of music rather than human beings.

>>9273
I was talking about why centrism is mockable, not you specifically. I apologize if I sounded a little personal there. Obviously there is criticism to be had on both the left and the right, but to insist they are the same or that they have the same beliefs is just insane (which is implied by believing they both hold the same amount of weight in terms of their arguments and beliefs, it's literally impossible to think both are equally valid ideas if you truly understand both as they are radically different)

Otherwise I agree, the internet has become a very strange place since 2016, and even stranger since 2020 and the advent of AI…

>>9271
It's anatomically detailed.

>>9275
i pride myself on my attention to detail and clinical accuracy

>>8947
But OP…you still could have been a cringy weirdo whilst also being a chud. I would know, I used to listen to the youtube narration of Daughter of Discord whilst posting on 4/pol/.
Frankly it just sounds like you need to finally gain some self-determination and go be the keyboard warrior you wish you could have been. If you're embarrassed about your age, you can just hide it; and if you long for some sort of childlike innocence to view this stuff through then you don't have to worry, that stuff is a myth. We all lose that by the time we turn 10 or so. I'm surprised it took you this long to catch onto the fact that you weren't having a good time with the circles you were in