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 No.9516[Reply]

I'm living a nightmare scenario that's often proposed to neet/hiki "what would you do if your caregiver gets sick?" well, this is what has happened to me and i don't know how much time i have left, but i refuse to work, my aunt i could stay with her for a while. Not sure if my stepdad will still take care of me, he said he would, but you never know.
For the time being, I'm trying to enjoy myself in any way i can until things get worse, sucks because i have no other family. fuck it.
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 No.9702

hello anon. are you okay?

 No.9710

*Thumbs


Up*

 No.9723

>>9701

sorry for loss, anon

its good to hear that you are doing good, ganba!

 No.10179

i wish i could go full ed gein and do deranged shit with me house, but i have to keep it clean.

 No.10180

>>10179
dont be a pussy nigga



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 No.10160[Reply]

How do you guys plan to escape neetism? I think the only way is to escape is if you have an extremely strong purpose in life and i think the best way to do that is it not live for your self but for others but thr problem is with neets they don’t go outside and know many people besides family and situation like misaki from nhk wouldn’t happen, so it’s basically impossible since neets don’t go outside and find people so people won’t find them. I’m a semi-frequent user of the board i hope you guys get better i myself have been dealing with it for a couple years due to some stuff I’m dealing with i feel like i have purpose again but due to the location where I live I don’t really have a chance to socialize and form deep connections so it got me thinking about how people play an impact in your life so that’s why i posted it hear. [this is one of my very first longer post’s so forgive for any spelling mistakes]
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 No.10171

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>>10170
Based. I honestly think that the quirk chungus "job application jumpscare" zoomer tardninjaing is a psyop by the feds to try and get neets and undesirables that can't get jobs to feel worse by slow degrees, ideally culminating in rope so that the government doesn't have to do it themselves. I fucking hate normninjas so much man

anyway check out this awesome fanart i found

 No.10175

>>10160
escaping isn't super difficult. you slowly realize that your paranoia of the world and self assured knowledge that existence is meaningless is in and of itself questionable because of said paranoia. after that you stop being able to trust your own thoughts and do wayyy too many psychedelic drugs to try and reset your brain to a point where things made sense, this is how most typically escape. the question of how long it takes you to reach the desperation to do something like that is basically just predicted by how thoroughly you've been deluded by whatever ideology or cope which dragged you here in the first place. no matter how assured you are in your prison there is always the option to obliterate your current self and move on

 No.10176

>>10175
>how thoroughly you've been deluded by whatever ideology or cope which dragged you here in the first place

i love how you don't even consider the option that there might be external forces leading people to neetism, it's all "their fault" so to speak. really great stuff tumblranon

 No.10177

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>>10175
drugs are bad anon

 No.10178

>>10177
is that an original printing reset from legends? what a find! the mystery booster 2 one is ok i guess, but there's something great about the old art



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 No.9812[Reply]

Is anyone else here completely alone?

I don't mean just no gf.

>no friends


>no family


>no online friends


>no pets


>no goldfish


Literally nothing.
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 No.9852

>>9851
>What people's phone numbers do you have saved?
I don't have a phone.

 No.9853

>>9852
without a phone you will get absolutely nowhere in terms of socializing these days anon

 No.9867

ya life terrible dork boy

 No.9874

>>9853
Mobile phones are absolutely malicious devices and it's better to be a total outcast than be a slave to those wire taps.

 No.10165

>>9812
Yes, I don't think I'll ever be able to hold long standing relationships. I've given up most of my hope. I can't commit.



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 No.6627[Reply]

I missed out on everything as a kid. I was always left alone by my peers which fucked me up of any social skills in the long run. I still have trouble holding a conversation. Have you guys had any trouble as a kid? This extreme isolation happened from 3rd to 8th grade which was enough to cripple me possibly my whole life. Or what is left of it anyway. Nearly 6 years of my life consisted of going home from school and back. Every day. Never talk with anyone, not even with family. Just me and my thoughts from a young age

I don't want to be like those other anons who just vent out shit here, so I'll ask the question, have you guys went through something similar that had a damaging effect on you? I still feel bits of loneliness from it.

pic unrelated FLCL just makes me feel like shit
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 No.9707

>>9706
i feel the same, but it's compounded by the fact that all the social circles im in (fag indie rpgs, rock climbing, skating, mtg) attract either ubertards or the most intolerably morose people ever

 No.10037

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Guess what boys?

That's right.

I'm getting out of my THIRD hotel. But this time on my own accord. Boss and coworkers didn't like me anyway and the older workers kept geting pissed off by me and I hated the place so I said I'm leaving, no one tried to stop me or change my mind. I think I'm retarded or something… Never work in hotels if you're ex-NEET/Hikki… I hate dealing with and serving people. I think I'm just destined to live as a parasitic life form, a curse to my family. My whole existence was a cruel joke by the demiurge to bring my parents financial and emotional ruin.

There is no escape for me. I'm doomed. AAAAAAAAAAA

 No.10121

>FLCL just makes me feel like shit
Me too. And I was only 18 then, already sickened by what I imagined myself to have missed out on.

I managed to get by socially attaching a permanent class clown type thing to my face that never came off until high school ended, at which point I burned every last bridge and stopped going outside for many years. All this to say is that I never really felt myself to be myself around people or even around myself, barring maybe very early childhood. It's like I never existed for most of my life.

Well, I managed to "go outside" since all of that but I should say that even being past 30 I still can't convince myself that I am a real person. I have a lot of trouble showing my face in public. Because it basically doesn't exist in a real way and I am ashamed of that. And I'm just as scared of looking into the void as others would be.

Well, all this is for old men anyway. Grieving adolescence is painful for sure though.

 No.10158

>>10121
Are you me?

 No.10225

>>10158
Unfortunately yes. I'm so sorry.



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 No.3696[Reply]

Do you ever feel like you're passively observing your life, or that the physical world is no more real than the virtual one or the one in your head? Do you ever forget the meanings of the subjective or abstract, or stop understanding the purpose of normal human actions like saying words or putting food in themselves?
Is there anything specific that caused this for you? How long does it go on for, and how often does it happen? I remember a while back I nearly got hit by a car because it happened when I was in the middle of the road and I just stopped moving.
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 No.10122

For as long as I can remember, I've occasionally felt as if my entire life has just been a dream. Sometimes it's more that everything feels like I'm watching a movie or something and I'm just the camera. But I don't think that's the same thing.

 No.10130

>>7371
those 20 minutes were worth it, thank you, I hope you're doing well

 No.10131

>>7442
I understand what you mean by the dreams of that girl
Ive dreamt of multiple women in my years of being a neet and I saw one that was pale white,white skin white hair, and she was laying on a bed, music was playing in the back while I caressed her body
it was an odd dream, but it felt like we understood each other without ever speaking a word.
The sad part about it is that I only know she was all white like snow, when I remember the dream I realize Im forgetting her face and get a little sad inside
hopefully what >>7441 says is true, id really like to meet her one day
another dream I had with a god was one where there was this all black room, with a girl that had black hair, pretty shaggy, a bit like tomoko spiky looking but shaggy, and her skin was bright white with a white glow, it was really dark in the room and she was the only source of light, I could see the floor be lit up a little bit. She reached her hand out to me and once I touched it, I woke up. That day I felt that I met a God, a god who will be there for me
unrelated stuff

I hope to be able to convey these dreams in art one day but I hope writing it here will allow someone else to do them justice

 No.10135

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I feel reality through friends I trust, occasionally family, and the scenery of the outside. I do not feel reality through my thoughts, myself (or perception of myself and feelings), or the public around me. It all feels like a sick cartoon show at times and I hate how people can be caricatures of things like actors in a play. Myself included. I need to find a release and reprioritize things. The world such as nature and buildings feel real but the general public does not and makes me feel like I've been warped into a place I don't belong or fit in to. The internet feels this way too. My mind is constantly racing and inconsistent belief-wise and I only say what I say to see if any living thing will hear me even if its jumbled and non-sensical.

 No.10136

>>3696
Yes, life to me does not feel real some days. Especially considering people I used to know and events and things that have happened to me. I sometimes wonder what happened to certain people from my life in the past and if they were even real or just some kind of figment of my imagination. As I get older I seem to watch my life play out in front of my eyes, but I know I need to be apart of life or else it will just move without me. Being hikki seems to make this situation worse, I thought I had so much potential when I was young. Now, here I sit. Wondering what in the hell happened, this not where I saw my life being, and how do I fix this so that the rest of my life doesn't end up slipping away from me.



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 No.10123[Reply]

I did nothing this new year’s i just stayed in room not doing anything but there is one thing i have been trying to do and that is drawing one thing everyday does anyone have any drawing advice?

 No.10124

>>10123
lmao aren't you that gideon nigga with the ugly ass cartoon cat avatarfag

 No.10128

remember what made you want to draw, and keep that feeling you got with you, if motivation may be what you lack
aside from that, drawing daily is already a big thing, I also saw once that you should always carry a pen, so that you can doodle anywhere you are to practice shapes and forms (hair, anatomy, physics, textures, even just shapes)

 No.10134

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Starting months ago until now, I'm doing an practice projects drawings everyday, putting the date like "prac010626" and basically trying to do whatever I feel like to make in the moment without breaking too much my head for some minimum 15 minutes. Just doodling something like a anatomy pose, an object or character for fun feels refreshing, instead of doing it like if like some judges are painfully observing every gesture I make on my graphic tablet. Exploring some new music from basically anything like bands or videogame soundtracks while drawing makes it better, or watch new movies or animes. At least is working for me.

I don't know if this is your case, but I saw that I was slowly becoming more and more perfectionist than creative with basically any activity, making something that I used to love to do and learn, into a stressful activity that my brain tries to dodge like the plague. Hopefully this is not your situation and with time, drawing becomes again something fun were invest your time.



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 No.9769[Reply]

I turned 30 earlier this year. Birthdays are always highly melancholic for me, as it simply means that I'm one year older and one year closer to dying. However, my 30th birthday is one that I've always especially dreaded. I've always felt like, once I turn 30, I won't be young anymore. I'm truly an adult, whether I feel like one or not. But what does it even mean to be an adult anyways? Quite frankly, I don't want anything to do with what society tells me "adults" are supposed to do. I don't want to get married or have kids. I don't want to be a debt slave and work a job that I hate so that I can spend the rest of my life paying rent to a landlord (or paying off a mortgage). I don't want to partake in the meaningless rat race. I want something more, but I know that there really is nothing more. Life is an endless abyss with no purpose that we were all born to slave away and die in. I really don't know how anyone with a functioning brain can live in this world and not want to kill themselves.

 No.9772

i found some pleasure playing the piano, but idk, is just me, tomorrow who knows, maybe i will hate myself once again

 No.9773

>>9772

There really isn't anything that I enjoy, to be perfectly honest.

 No.9820

Move to the countryside and live off the land as a hermit. Be helpful to your neighbors and be happy. That's my dream ay least. Minimal interactions, just people to think of me and say "Oh yeah, that guy. He's alright."

 No.10071

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>>9769
I turn thirty this May and I feel you. I don't know where the time went, it honestly did feel like I turned twenty yesterday and then I just woke up and now I am old.



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 No.10024[Reply]

Being forever alone is only tolerable if you are a cute girl. There's just something so ethereal about the scenery of a pretty loner woman, trudging around in the snow alone on a winter night, surrounded by bokeh Christmas light decorations. Unfortunately, I was born as a masculine looking moid, so I will shoot myself eventually.

In fact, I don't think moids should exist at all. Autistic moids like me literally serve no purpose.

The connection between my autism and my gender dysphoria is that as an autistic person, I cannot form any close bonds with others, so I can only be in the presence of beauty and femininity if I feminize myself. Imo the lifestyle of a woman is far superior for foreveralone autists, because socialization can be somewhat replaced by having a hobby in self-beautification and exploring a much wider range of personal aesthetic expression, with ornate dresses, skirts, makeup, ribbons, and accessories.
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 No.10031

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I know how you feel OP but don't shoot yourself, there's an entire life out there for you and there's always better options than just giving up. I am autistic too and it's always hard because social connection doesn't come easy. I did eventually teach myself in the most autistic way possible and it does feel like I am heavily masking at times, but it also allowed me access to people I could truly be myself around. I also get how you feel about being a moid, I am uncomfortable with my masculine traits as well but that's why I am taking slow but steady progress to feel more comfortable in my own body. Giving up should never be an option.

 No.10032

>>10031
I agree that it's best to treat autism through social/psychological training.

On the other hand, regarding gender dysphoria, "Accepting yourself" and "becoming comfortable" is totally inane and underwhelming BS. I desperately need multiple facial surgeries to eliminate this disgusting masculinity from my face, so i can at least become a more androgynous male.

 No.10033

>>10031
seconded you can piss off the new (indian) owner's legion of cocksuckers if you stay alive

 No.10034

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>>10033
Then I should let you >>10031 is me and I am in the legion of cocksuckers :^)
i dont think bal is indian though :^(

 No.10035

>>10034
tf u mean nigga bal/seagal is the most indian ass username ever, he probably plays enough pubg mobile to make a chinger blush(USER WAS BANNED FOR TRYING TOO HARD TO BE FUNNY)



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 No.6987[Reply]

How do you deal with an embarrassing past?
Also, share your embarrassing past. None will beat mine.

Humiliation is hard to overcome because I feel like I'm a trash human being, I'm constantly afraid that people will see my past in the afterlife and see all the humiliating things that happened to me and cringe. I can't be friends with them because I feel unworthy of their friendship.

I was a special ed student at 5 years old, spent all my youth with disabled people, they would lock me up in a padded room with no light when I misbehaved anyhow or didn't listen to the teacher.
I went to normal school after that and the teacher refused to let me use the bathroom, I peed my pants in front of the whole class and was bullied for 3 years over it.
I was bullied in 3 different schools because I had been sheltered and spoiled by my parents who thought they had a "special son".
I was beaten by bullies, isolated, humiliated, and had no friends for years.
I became bitter and angry and joined the chans, which fucked me up even more with gore videos and whatnot.
My parents left me to rot as a NEET for years to take care of my sisters and never paid attention to me.
I know my dad and mom hate me secretly and prefer my two sisters who are neurotypical.
I was an autistic retard, my whole youth. I can't overcome that and become someone I'm not. I will always be a retard.
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 No.7503

holy shit I've been looking for a thread like this. I'm obsessing over the past. I worry that even if i become the president or something crazy like that, people will find out about my past and destroy all that I will have accomplished up to that point. This is why I have no ambition.

 No.7509

Don't really have it in me to write anything long-winded at the moment, but I struggle with daily things normal people find effortless and it sucks, especially at my age. I've only kind of learned to conceal it and play it cool, but this base incompetence follows me around no matter where I go it seems like.

 No.7530

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Embarrassment is a huge set off for me. Spent a lot of my childhood as a non masking autistic and I ended up getting in a lot of shit situations because people could point at me and say ‘yep that’s definitely an autistic.

must’ve been in like fourth grade when I realised I had forgotten one day that it was own clothes day (uniformed school lel) and everyone else had come in their clothes while I was in my uniform. Ended up having a huge meltdown in the street because of my embarrassment, got stared at loads.
Own clothes days have set me off ever since, I even broke down in twelfth grade when I realised I had done it again and I had to go home because I was crying so much.

I still don’t know how to deal with it, since embarrassment kind of comes pre packaged with being autistic in such a society. Getting jeered at, stared at, wondering why you’re so different.

Embarrassments just never been my favorite feeling in the world

 No.10003

>>7530
Start ripping eyes out

 No.10030

>>7479
not that anon but i come back with an answer, you just feel immense guilt and loneliness when you are mentally or physically unwell



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 No.9879[Reply]

i'm nearing unemployment 2 years, i've tried to upskill with certificates, still barely get any interviews. is it hopeless? thank you
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 No.9912

>>9883
thanks for the post. sounds horrible i hope you get better anon



i wish i could calm down, i get nerve wracking despair, stomach stiffness and pain thinking i have no future anymore, n going to want to hire me with my cv. crying everyday in the mornings and evenings with some energy left to focus on something else in the middle if i can. i dont even know if i can handle entry/blue collar work im so useless. even then im too antisocial to collaborate well with other people. every day is hell

 No.10004

You need friends, someone inside who can get you a job. Finding shit on your own is almost impossible and very little rewarding.

 No.10015

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>>10004
This. Try to network and find people you can use as references. You might be able to sign up for volunteer work and that could be an extra boost that can help out a lot. Volunteer work looks good on resumes for two reasons: it shows you are active in the community (employers like this for obvious reasons related to company image) and it also helps connect you with a vast swath of resources. Alternatively, I don't know your particular situation, but take low paying menial jobs in the mean time to build yourself up. It sucks and will be hard but unforunately most employers look for experience more than anything else (to the point where even degrees can get thrown to the wayside). Getting employed, especially somewhere good, is a hard task but don't give up and believe in yourself. I believe in you.

 No.10020

dfd

 No.10022

>>10015
hi, thank you for the post. it helps

I work in IT basic admin work. Live free with parents. in the past 5 years I've had 5 jobs, only one of them around a year and a half, the rest were short and with small gaps in between. so I think my CV looks chaotic without even this huge gap.

I got certified in some cloud around this year, trying to present my current gap as some sort of upskilling. But no energy/willpower to do demo projects

Still I barely got one interview in the past half year so far.

I'm panicking alot all day ruminating all day, have this increasingly all encompassing sinking, very suffocating feeling I've dug myself a permanent hole basically. I could've and should've not quit jobs so often, I chose to quit my last place when I could've stayed put, cant believe how stupid I am lol. Amazing.


all I'm thinking of is the likely chance I'll remain stuck in a low-level job like some sort of divine punishment (I try not to be an asshole with others but its hard). it's terrifying like I'm losing my mind

Soon I will try find any work with help from the state, better than doing nothing like you said I just really hope it's not forever. It's very hard for me to accept the potential embarassment but there's nothing I can do about it better accept it
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