my mother has come to realize that i havent been leaving my bed let alone my room and she's starting to try to pull me out of the room to spend time with her (e.g. cooking, helping her out with stuff). however, there's some subconscious side of me that

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she's trying, it isn't working - why won't i let her help? Anonymous 06/25/25 (Wed) 00:13:06 No.9531

my mother has come to realize that i havent been leaving my bed let alone my room and she's starting to try to pull me out of the room to spend time with her (e.g. cooking, helping her out with stuff).

however, there's some subconscious side of me that, against my will, fights her at every step and the moment i'm free from her plunges me back deeper into isolation. i don't know what to do. i dont want to be this way anymore. i don't want to be alone but for some reason part of me does want to.

i wanted to live a normal life. i wanted to go to community college. i wanted to have a career. i wanted to have a loving husband. instead i can't remember the last time i left my house.

please for the love of god help me. i cant keep living like this. i genuinely don't know what to do anymore. i don't want to die a miserable shell of who i used to be.