/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>9505
you are trying to present as a woman?

>>9560
>turn the computer off
i don't think you understand what i meant by that, shutting my pc off and not allowing myself access to any form of non-irl socialization will immediately drive me to suicide

>>9561
what age range are you in?

>any advice as to what i should do to fill the time?
Yeah take people's advice. And get a job. Avoid online, avoid sulking in your own despair, do anything other than seeking people to revalidate your feelings or seeking people to get argumentative with. Meditate, exercise, exercise AND meditate, avoid drugs, be productive. You at least got rid of discord while you mentally can't handle it. Deleting everyone and everything is something I advise against to keep in contact with good friends, but at least you are trying to avoid excessive online social interaction so good on you (even though you are still going to imageboards). Practice self-restraint and push yourself out of your comfort zone.

That's all I can vomit out for you. Heed the advice or don't and watch your life spiral out of control. Not my problem. I know who wrote this OP or at least have an idea.

>>9561
>not allowing myself access to any form of non-irl socialization will immediately drive me to suicide
Maybe try irl socialization as a replacement then? Just a thought. All it takes is a "Hi how are you doing" and a follow up of "Do you have any hobbies?"

>>9562
18 - i'm sure you consider me too young to be here but i genuinely have nowhere else to go where i can find people who have enough experience with isolation to give me solid advice

>>8761
To be honest, I stopped caring about people and relationships or women since I locked myself away from the world. It's very lonely, but sometimes it's peaceful, dealing with people is always a lot of work, you fight for them, you do everything for someone, and in the end it ends like all things, and you still end up hurt and all the memories they become painful and all the work you did for them was in vain.

Thinking like this is extremely pessimistic and lonely, but it is a way for you to never get hurt again and perhaps, with great luck, be "happy".

>>8771
Understandable and respectable, fratello.

>>8762
He's going to get called that whether he likes it or not so might as well own it.

men say this and then have the most soulful personalities and then create evangelion

>>8793
ok, but i think it's weird to internalize it.

>>8091
I don't actually have any problem leaving my house/room, I just don't have any friends or money to do anything.

this board is so bad to be on if you are a teen or young adult. especially if you are easily impressionable and think hikkineets are cool. brainworms. also absorbing other's miserable thoughts. it's bad.

>>9540
It's a fansite for a game where some girl shuts herself in her apartment and has nightmares until she kills herself and there isn't much to the game other than to watch the girl go through trippy and fucked up trauma implications.
That will obviously gather a bunch of people from which a great many will be mentally ill, and for some reason they have a forum to discuss mental health of all things where most are likely not to be in a good place to give mental health tips to anybody.
Of damn course its not a place for kids or idiots. This site is as adults only as it gets.
On the bright side, it's fun.

>>9542
plump 13 year old pakistani fingers wrote this

>>7863
>school
i really really hate to be like this because gatekeeping doesn't help anyone but i feel like hikki communities are not the best place to ask for social advice in situations like this

Reading this was just like looking myself in the mirror. I started to feel paranoid and this over-self awareness about many things; especially if I need to do things outside. Feeling this sensation of being watched or recorded for no rational reason. I even talk alone so much, to the point that I think the objects around me are listening and having their own opinion. Social isolation in his overdrive I suppose.

>is it possible for loneliness and prolonged social isolation to cause psychotic symptoms? am i losing my mind?
yes to both, humans are inherently social creatures despite our attempts to tell ourselves otherwise. If you have a friend you can confide in, I would suggest talking to them at least a little bit (it could be about anything, even an online friend could suffice). I'd also suggest maybe going for a walk outside or changing your surrounding for a bit so you aren't caught up in the subtle monotony that can drive yourself insane when isolate. Even something as simple as cleaning your room or changing the curtains can go a long way.

As for the feeling of being stalked, I've been there and the best thing you can do is to repeat to yourself "its not true" and reminder yourself that you are but one person in a sea of a billion of people. While it may be true that some data firm is collecting your voting records, nobody truly cares to constantly record and track you. If that were the case, many petty criminals especially cyber criminals would be caught by now, there would constantly be a social worker at your doorstep at any given time, and society would have cameras watching us in the home (and no amazon and google products people willing put in their homes doesn't count, i'm talking legit gov Orwellian shit). The truth of the matter is that not only is that shit massively expensive and impractical for a gov (I've worked in gov, I know trust me) but its also a violation of privacy laws (which despite gov repeatedly trying to break with shit like the Patriot act and Prism, it always comes back to bite them in the ass and still many things slip under the radar because of the impracticality of it all). You aren't being watched, except for cookies on sites designed to advertise you useless shit and chances are you already most of that blocked with browser extensions. Just don't go on shady sites and align with shady people and you should be good.

It might be worth it to tell your psychiatrist about these delusions. At worst you could be schizophrenic, at best you could just be very autistic. I'm not a therapist or a psych medicine person though, I'm just an anon with too much free time.

yess but it got better for me after stopping some meds and i think if i talk to people more itll get better. (idk if recommended for people here)

sounds like depression

>>9534
oh yeah about that to clarify for further discussion i am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and nearly dropped out of high school because of it

I think what it comes down to, and this might not sound helpful/easier said than done, is just resisting the urge. i guess "resisting the other side of you" in this instance. it'll be extremely uncomfortable but you can't have anything if you don't try for it. little by little of course, don't force yourself too hard in the beginning or you will fall back. it sounds like your mother is pretty much giving you baby steps so try your hardest to go along with her for now and then work your way up. maybe to not immediately go NEET mode again, you could hang out with her a little longer each time you do something together, like a chat after putting away the groceries or what have you or talking about the food you guys made and considering other recipes. hope this doesn't sound too reddit, i believe in you anon-chan

the reason why you kinda dont want to get out of this subconsciously is most likely because that is simply what you have become used to. isolation is your everyday life since probably quite a long time and getting out of your comfort zone is extremely hard but definitely possible. so yeah do what anon said, push yourself through with it, the fact that your mother acknowledges your problem and offers you subtle help is giving you a big advantage in terms of healing. accept her help, do not dump it in the trash just cause youre afraid or because it seems difficult. thats one of the reasons why many people (including me) stay stuck forever.

>>8153
Thank you, I will look into everything you send in the morning. Is it actually possible to just get a cybersec job without a degree? I've seen plenty of NEETs do it over the years. Maybe it's possible with COMPTia certs.

>>8154
looks like it is but don't get my word for it. you'll learn script and automation stuff anyway so a sys admin position could also be a thing maybe?
keep me updated!

Hooo boy. I keep coming back to this thread I made years ago. It's 4 AM and I'm smoking on my childhood home'd kitchen window. Since I made this thread not much had changed. I attempted to go to college, then barely attended and dropped out. Just playing vidya at nights and sleeping the day through. 14 year old me would not be surprised at all. My NEET days are about to be over, I think. My mom has daily fights with me over my NEETdom and is forcing me to get a job. I'm barely eating and when I do I feel disgusting and guilty about it. To add salt to my injury my mom makes sure to constantly berate me about my weight, as if she hadn't given me an eating disorder through 12th grade. I feel so disgusting whenever I eat most things. I don't know why, despite everything, I still haven't became an hero. I'm too lazy to rope I guess. I'm do tired.

Also the reason why FLCL makes me feel like shit is because of my fear of missing out. I want to go on adventures with friends like in the anime, but throughout the years I've felt that I was too old for that stuff or was simply too depressed to go out. Anyway, idk what I'm going for with this post. Maybe It's just an update? Or maybe I'm just proving my existence by shouting at the void. Nevertheless I'm only hoping that my dad gives me money for another pack of cigs tomorrow, I only got 2 left in the pack.

>>6627
when i was in elementary and middle school i was the "target kid"; the one who was the easiest to bully and because of this i spent a lot of that time an outcast and i believe it most likely had disastrous consequences for my long tterm health

>>9532
ME TOO

mini-pc arrived early, now i can use the laptop for whatever i want.

>>9508
>>9395
I am envious of the clean room set up. I wish I was that organized

>>9513
tbf thats from when i first moved, now its moreso organized chaos.
im getting closer n closer to my ideal set-up.

>>9508 tech issues i mentioned, the ssd in the thinkpad x280 was corrupted so i have to get another one.
i put linux on the lenovo thinkcentre so i can turn it into a server of sorts.
eagerly awaiting the arrival of my thinkpad x60, im excited unlike other models this one has the IBM logo and the sick keyboard with the blue enter key.
for the x60 im gonna have to use a 32 bit distro since this partiular x60 isnt the 64 bit variant.

i need to get a PO box, far too many times packages have been kicked back, my x60 was meant to be here days ago. but because i live in the middle of nowhere i get fucked over.