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 No.8376[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Trans Mega Thread!

So, let's try something here.

Frequently a trans-related topic comes up in a thread here in /hikki/, and the thread will quickly get derailed by malicious comments or by the diversion in topic just taking over. There is clearly a lot of interest in discussing trans topics, as well as a lot of unwelcome interest in shutting them down. But they do tend to take over threads either way. So, while we figure out how to handle this from a moderation standpoint, I am going to make a trans discussion mega thread here to contain such conversations. This might end up being permanent. If you find that a thread makes you want to discuss a trans-related topic, make a post here instead.

Rules 6 and 7 are strictly enforced in this thread, and violations will result in longer bans. However, uncomfortable questions are also allowed within reason.

Also if a trans topic starts to derail a thread from now on we may delete those posts.

Also Sei is trans. So I might make some posts in here as well.

Update 11/04/2024: When the conversation in the trans thread veers into whether transness is even a thing that exists, that will be considered an attempt at derailment. This thread isn't for you. It is specifically a containment thread for people who want to talk about transness from the starting assumption that the topic itself and the kind of identity it discusses is valid. Please keep that in mind.
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 No.9335

>>9333
Warned for this post because it's way too much but also

>>9334
Knock it off, this is derailing the thread.



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 No.172[Reply]

From now on, the >>>/rec/ board should generally be used for conversations about recovery from NEETism. This is not a hard rule but you are likely to have a better experience.

Seeing as absolutely everyone misread the /hikki/ rules sticky and used it to draw apocalyptic conclusions about the death of all that was good about /n/, here's a less flippant sticky with less room for ambiguity, in the form of a Q&A. We've also made some concessions based on your feedback in thread >>13, which was moved to /sugg/ for being meta.

What is allowed on this board? What is its purpose?
On this board you can discuss and request or give advice regarding NEETism, Hikikomoriism, anxieties and social or mental issues arising from these conditions of living, and things closely related to these topics. If you're content with being a NEET at this stage in your life, that's ok, and you won't get in trouble for saying so. The board's primary focus is self-help and advice regarding these issues. Despite rumors, threads looking for help with suicidal feelings or drug addition are also allowed.

What is not allowed on this board?
* Encouraging others to become NEET.
* Attacking or discouraging others for being NEET.
* Giving or requesting advice on how to enter the NEET lifestyle.
* Encouraging or showcasing drug usage.
* Announcing your planned suicide.
* Helping others to plan or commit suicide.
* Topics not related to the purpose of the board. Such topics will be moved.
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 No.8774[Reply]

It sound faggy, but I wish I lived in the world of DELTARUNE. I hate my shitty little life here in Australia. My only actual friends are the faggots the government pays to tolerate me to make sure I don't sperg out and kill myself. I've tried to go to social events, like Magic and Pokémon TCG tournaments, but the only people there are megaspergs who I can't be next to without wishing that they get shot, or they're unfriendly zoomers. The few nice people are too distant. Nothing gives me joy any more. If I was a DELTARUNE character everything would be so much easier. I love the colours of Hometown, I love the people there. I don't want to come across like one of the autists soying out about how great it would be to live in the Avatar universe, but does anybody feel the way I do? I hate how close my cucked lib parents are to me. I wish they didn't care so that I could have an actual excuse to be upset. I wish I lived in Canada or even a shithole like America or the UK. I hate being stuck in the shitty weather with my ugly stupid fucking parents and their stupid fucking gen x faggotry. I almost want to cut myself just to have something to cry over but I'm scared. I wish I had some friends but because I live in such a fucking shithole the only people around are complete fucking retards with fucking ugly haircuts and subhuman levels of intelligence. I hate this. I wish I had different parents. I'll never be able to buy a house, or live on my own. If only I had just a few close friends that weren't complete fucking autismo cunts. But that's too much to fucking ask for in a fucking era of "neurodivergency" and "self expression". I want a fucking friend. I want a room that isn't in a complete fucking shack owned bu some fucking faggy pacifist christian group. I hate everything about my life. I wish someone would rape me to death so that I could at least go out without it being my fault. I wish people would mourn me. I'm so bored. I'm so alone. I hate my stupid fucking parents so fucking much. I wish they had abused me as a kid so that I actually had something to cry over. I'm stuck. I had one friend. I liked her so much. It was entirely platonic, but that didn't make it any less of a break from the stupid faggotry that this shitty fucking world keeps flinging at people. I hate feeling sorry for myself because I have things that people would die for but I'm such a pathetic little faggot. I want to troon out because I'm so sick of being a man, and being a girl seemsPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.9264

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>>9246
>Oh yeah, I'm going to be friends with some balding, shouting freak who pisses and shits himself when I take too long to do a deck check. Or some twitching XQC-esque degenerate who spent eighty shekels for a copy of Gaea's Cradle, and grabs my cards. I love how my point stands perfectly, so you have to act as though I'm being pretentious in order to even begin arguing against it.
Because you are being pretentious. The fact you call my basic-tier advice "pull up by bootstraps" tells me all I need to know about you, and the types of ideology that is poisoning you. You also missed the point of what I was saying, I was saying you are no better than them. And from your response, its easy to tell why. You acted with hostility and avoided accountability just as I expected.

 No.9267

>>9264
>…the types of ideology that is poisoning you. You also missed the point of what I was saying, I was saying you are no better than them.

Nice. Thanks for openly comparing me to literal subhumans. I appreciate you dropping the act and finally being honest. Faggots like you should be torched.(USER WAS TORCHED FOR FUN)

 No.9356

Jesus fucking christ. Are you tourists? God, this site really has gone down the shitter. No basic fucking respect, no attempt at understanding my situation. Just "oh it's your fault and you're being enabled lol, try harder". You are all the fucking epitome of what it means to be a normfag. I wonder if you degenerate cunts act like this in your day-to-day lives; do you see someone in obvious distress and immediately think "it's their fault and I would be enabling them by sympathising"? You're the literal textbook definition of a faggot. You cunts watched Dr. Phil once and made it your entire personality you autistic freaks. What do you subhumanly stupid cunts think you've done other than cement my belief that I am, in fact, completely alone, when I go to a hikkineet site with my frustrations and the answer I get is, "well have you considered trying harder? Ermmm, something something self-hating, ermmm, yeah it's all your fault actually". What do you expect me to make of that other than "nobody will ever care"? You're all genuinely subhumanly unempathic. Have you degenerate faggots considered that maybe I have tried? That maybe I wouldn't be here if I had? You're all such fucking evil cunts. If I were any of you I would blow my nuts off with a .22 just to do humanity the dignity of not having to breed with me.

Genuinely, fuck you faggots. What happened to basic fucking decency on this site?

 No.9357

>>9356
You are so busy being mad about everything that you didn't really process any of the advice given to you, whats the point in trying to help if you just throw up your arms and scream at every attempt to get through to you that isn't just someone going "yeah my life sucks too". I don't even know why I am bothering to write anything cause it sounds like we're just another thing you're gonna blame for all your issues instead of doing the self reflection you need to do, not just the self reflection you're comfortable doing. Just because you've "tried" already doesn't mean you were following the right train of thought. Take accountability and let go of the hate man, I really do hope things work out for you but I doubt you believe me when I say that.

 No.9358

>>9357
"take accountability"

Once again you obviously just think it's all my fault. Nice to finally get some fucking clarity that even random faggots on the internet think I'm a failure.



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 No.9299[Reply]

how do you guys cope with paranoia? I don't usually struggle to talk to people too hard online, Like I have friends that I can play games with and stuff, but even then I have these straight up delusional episodes and huge swaths of paranoia that causes me to struggle, even in seemingly favorable circumstances. Really close friend? I'll lose sleep for weeks thinking up all sorts of insane shit. Finally forced myself to leave the house? Every single car is someone who is gonna stop, get out, and attack me or kidnap me or something. God Forbid if the car has tinted windows, My body will just straight up have a fear response to completely innocuous things! It keeps me locked up inside, I barely wanna leave my room cause I'll get paranoid over the people I'm living with. It's unbelievably mentally isolating, Sometimes I just wish the isolation was a purely physical state that had no baring on my mental - but we all know it's not that simple.
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 No.9345

>>9343
>>9344
Oh wow! I had never heard of any of this, Honestly reading this was a little scary. I'm gonna talk to my doctor and see cause I really don't wanna fuck up my brain long term. ESP since I personally don't think I am schizophrenic, My theory is that its just PTSD or something

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>>9345
I don't mean to add to the stress with the big scary post. Sorry anon, I just don't want anyone going through what I've been through and I should have taken more care to write in a less intimidating way. I wish you all the luck in the world!
One last little tidbit, psychologists and therapists tend to do a way better job than psychiatrists, it is possible to find a good doctor. Just keep your wits about you and make sure they are giving you holistic care instead of just ticking off checkboxes and quickly drawing a conclusion.

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>>9347
I appreciate the advice a lot! I really do!

I'm just so conflicted because so far I have felt amazing on these meds, even though im pretty sure its just a trial run. I might need some adjustment but man life just feels easier with these… I'm still not totally convinced of the current "theory" around what the issue is, and honestly I'm pretty new to all this. For ages I didn't know the difference between a psychiatrist and a therapist. I honestly don't even know what a "Psychologist" is and what the meaningful difference is.

I could really use all the advice and stories I can get right now. I really just don't wanna be burdened by this stupid brain stuff my whole life.

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>>9349
Since you feel good than I wouldn't worry too hard about it right now, in the short-to-medium term nothing super bad can happen anyways, and you might be on something that doesn't have major adverse long term effects. If somethings working that could be a good thing.

I can talk more in depth about my experience taking an antispyche for 2 years if you want to know, but in short I had negative experiences within weeks, that only got worse overtime. This is in contrast to you having good experiences so far!

If I were you I would search online to see what long term studies say about the drugs your taking, even just checking the wikipedia page can be helpful for getting an idea. Not all drugs are dangerous, antipsyches as a rule tend to have a higher risk profile though which alongside my personal experiences, is why I made my original comment.

To try to answer your other question, psychiatry is focused around the chemistry of the mind and mental health conditions. Psychiatrists seek to solve mental health conditions with chemical solutions, medication.

Psychology is the study of the human mind and all the nuanced aspects of it, a chemical understanding can still be used, but it won't be the whole picture for a psychologist.

For example, if a patient were highly depressed due to having an abusive parent. A psychiatrist would just give them an antidepressent and call it a day, because their whole understanding of the condition is confined to the patients brain chemistry. In contrast a good psychologist would try to help the patient build the state of mind needed to get away from the abusive relationship, help them process what happened through therapy, and then only recommend medication if therapy wasn't working or if the patients condition were so distressed that therapy wasn't possible at the moment.

Clinical therapists tend to fill both roles in a clinical setting and can lean more in one direction or another depending on the needs of the patient and or the therapists training and their practices methodology. It's a challenge finding a good one, but if you do they can be very helpful.

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>>9354
I'd love to hear more of your story.

As for me, I am so conflicted about this medication because pretty much all my paranoia has gone away, the visual stuff I've been calling Hallucinations has also been completely absent, I feel very grounded in reality overall! Although I have been getting a lot of brain fog, and what feels like a constant passive headache, and some other random bullshit. I'm not sure how I feel about that trade off, the brain fog kinda sucks but not being crazy paranoid all the damn time is kinda huge. Weirdest part is that its been easier for me to focus? but I also feel like I've become stupider at the same time?? like I'm less aware of my intelligence? its so hard to describe

On the note of doctors and shit, I really don't know what I need clinically. If I need a therapist, if I need to see a psychologist, if a psychiatrist is the right call… It gets my head so spun up man.

I really do wonder if I was struggling with some sort of Schizo-disorder type thing my whole life without realizing this whole time, or maybe I developed it at some point? Or maybe I'm just bipolar or something? I don't know how this works, I will keep this thread updated if you anons care though.



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What's even the point anymore? I've basically given up. I've lost so many opportunities; some of them my fault, a lot of them pure circumstance. But how much more do I have left to give?

People are unfriendly. All of those that share my interests are either autistics or just plain rude. I got called "terminally online" for asking for some normfag's discord handle (a site that I hate).

There's nothing to do around the city. Everything costs money. The streets are grimy and filled with the homeless. Housing costs keep going up. Nobody cares. The footpaths are choked with hideous invasive flowering weeds. The concrete is cracked and dirty. The infrastructure is accessible only to cars.

Why bother? There's not much point in leaving the house. But it's not much better inside than out. I try using mainstream socials, but everybody there is either unable to take criticism unless it goes with the flow of the community's zeitgeist, or is an American retard. And decent sites move too slowly to keep me occupied.

Why try? I'm enrolled for a once-a-week college course, starting this following week. But I don't see why I should care. I'll either do something stupid and get myself kicked out, or somebody else will.

I remember getting really sad a few years ago about the realisation that everything is ephemeral. Everything will eventually decay into entropy. I try to think about it every so often, but it's hardly motivating. What difference does it make if I try or not? Nobody will ever remember me either way.

It rained for a few days a little while ago.

I miss the petrichor.
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 No.9346

>>9340
>osu! and Minecraft
Are those the interests where people were unfriendly?
>grey and miserable after years of economic austerity
Yeah… I used to have a small terrarium to remind me what green looked like, it was nice

 No.9348

>>9346
No. Card games

 No.9351

I'm so alone.

There's no reprieve. I'm so alone. I want to cry. I'm a terrible person. We're all going to fade away into ash. I'm so alone. I hate myself. I'm useless. I'm so alone.

I wish I could find a rip of Persona 3 Reload online. Going to a normal high school is an experience I've never had and never will have.

I want a friend. I miss her.

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>>9351
dw man we'll get a rip of reload eventually, much like every good thing in life, it is inevitable and worth surviving tomorrow for.

 No.9353

>>9352
There's something so beautiful about the samples used by the music. I tried Portable, but the washed-out colours and lake of overworld models for the hero made it feel surreal and hard to connect with. Same with FES. But Reload feels real. And the theming of the water, the feeling of endlessly falling upwards, is beautiful.



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 No.9304[Reply]

Hi anons, I'm a random dude from Russia, I don't study, I don't work, I sit at home and go out only to store. I was wondering, how do you people from other countries live now and how, do you have anything to share your experience?
I'm thinking of moving to Japan someday (I love Japanese culture and I'm learning Japanese on duolingo) and living my stupid life there, well, and of course buying “Yume Nikki” merch.

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Oh hey, another fellow Russian on this god's forsaken imageboard. What a pleasant surprise, truly an extra slice of joy.
> I don't study.
You should consider it.
> I don't work.
You should consider it.
> how do you people from other countries live now and how
Unpleasant, but I'm used to it. Waiting for certain improvements.
> do you have anything to share your experience?
If you even consider finding a job - don't go to the governance structures. It's just not worth it.
> I'm thinking of moving to Japan
Leave it be that way, and look for an opposite direction instead.
> and of course buying “Yume Nikki” merch
DIY instead. At least that's what I do to grow my Yume Nikki merchandise collection.

And you didn't have to attach your personal e-mail to the post. It is not necessary.

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Hello, friend.
>>9304
>I was wondering, how do you people from other countries live now and how, do you have anything to share your experience
This is a broad question. If one lives in a shithole the experience will be bad, if one lives in a good country then it will be good. But for me is unplesant. I do not seriously consider to leave my country (unless thing gets really bad) because "you will never be one of them" and this fact really bothers me.

 No.9320

>>9318
It is sad. Unfortunately despite trade between parts of the world being greater than ever cultural export and homogeneity has decreased, meaning that moving between countries feels like shifting between planets. I hope you find the country of your dreams. I, personally, want to move to Finland. I love ULTRAKILL, walking through the snow, and Finnish as a language.

 No.9321

>>9320
teach me your ways

 No.9323

>>9320
??? What are you meaning???



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I truly do not believe that my future has any light at all. it's made itself very clear over the years that my parents just don't love me. they don't care or listen to me. They say it's unacceptable for me to ever be a NEET/live in their house much longer. I don't know what i'm going to do next. I deeply resent society and I'm not interested in working or doing studies. i dropped out when i was 16 with no graduation. i turn 19 in february. i'm not good at talking to others in real life nor do i desire it. the thing is i'm very talented at multiple things, and i love making art, i share it online and am also part of online artist communities, it's truly one thing that motivates me to live everyday to create and also to help others. But seeing the state of this world and how people like me are treated, it feels tiresome and neverending. I don't want to waste my potential but i am just not made for this shit. Who ever thought bringing offspring into this shit world [school, work, maybe family, die, repeat] was a good idea? Sorry for the depressing post. I just needed a place to write out these words. I think i just need to isolate myself more and ignore them entirely. It's a waste of energy to talk to them.
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 No.6833

let it all out man

can i see some of your art (:

 No.6834

>>6833
thanks. It's mostly just video collage/music, i don't really feel comfortable with linking my accounts though..
i'm decent at drawing but still trying to get better. Maybe one day i'll get back to this thread and post some.

 No.9301

>>6834

its been 3 years…

 No.9302

I wonder if this pal is doing better now.

 No.9307

>>9302
i hope so



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hi /n/, im curious about the NEETdom and wondering if you could answer some questions?

how long have you been a NEET?
was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?
what do you do all day?
what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?
how often do you get outside, if at all?
do you live independently or with parents?
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>how long have you been a NEET?
Since the day I dropped out high school near the end 2016, so 7-8 years now.

>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?

Autism and my upbringing: grew up poor, raised by an unstable and neglectful parent, and having my mind and spirit (and my front teeth) broken by the public school hell. Relentless bullying (which turned into regular assaults and beatings from middle school onward) and alienation throughout my entire adolescence lead to me becoming a dysfunctional non-adult who is isolated, and extremely paranoid about others. I don't believe I would've survived another year of HS. Thoughts of ending it still regularly cross my mind when painful memories from school randomly come back, or whenever I'm reminded of just how far behind I am compared to normal healthy people my age (24) and younger.

>what do you do all day?

I lost interest in my hobbies (namely art and gamedev) and did nothing but sleep all day, and lurk various image boards and dead forums from 2017-2020. September 2021 I upgraded from my old laptop to a decent PC with money I had saved from the stimulus checks, and decided to get back into art, learn and get good at 3D art with Blender, and actually create something instead of wasting away. I squandered much of 2022, binging through various games I had missed out on, and did not make as much progress as I had wished. Starting 2023, I decided to play less games and dedicate my time to practicing and grinding away at 2D and 3D art until it's decent enough to post online, get good at animating, and learn a certain game engine I've been wanting to work with. I Feel like I've made good progress over the past year, and have come to realize that I absolutely need to keep myself busy, as to not ruminate over negative thoughts and memories, or engage in self-destructive behavior.

>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?

I currently have zero internet friends, no presence on social media, and never had single IRL friend either. My mother and 19 year old brother (who is also a neet and autistic) are usually locked away in their rooms like myself. We only exchange a few words with each other each day, if any. I feel like I'm too broken to connect with anyone anymore, and just not compatible with this society which has devolved into Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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>>19
>how long have you been a NEET?
5-6 years, fuck me
>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?
It first started when i was going to college then i had a constant panic attack that lasted a month or a couple of weeks. In which i had spent most of my days sleeping then if not having an anxiety attack. It obviously eventually ended in me being kicked out because i wasn't showing up and i just never tried to go back.
>what do you do all day?
I basically waste my life away playing games, I do read once in a while but most things are quite boring or unfun.
>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?
Not much i don't have any friends anymore both real life and offline, i mostly just talk to my sibling once in a while. It isn't enough though so i mostly just suffer and endure with playing games.
>how often do you get outside, if at all?
I used to go outside a lot but now it is once in a while when i have a bit of money saved.
>do you live independently or with parents?
With family sadly, holy shit i wrote my life story.

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>>8052
i hope the best for you and that your life can get back on track, especially with the 3d blender art. the world is a cruel place.

 No.9296

>>19
Technically I'm not a neet anymore as of today due to finally enrolling into college and having my first day, but I might return in the future.
>how long have you been a NEET?
End of 2018 up until the start of 2025. The first half of 2021 had me studying a field I had no interest in but I couldn't continue due to the government saying I wasn't healthy enough. $10,000+ dollars down the drain.
>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?
No idea what I was going to do after high school. No goals, no interest and no skills. Couldn't get a job because of no skills or work experience.
>what do you do all day?
Video games, movies and anime.
>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?
None. Not online or in person, aside from occasionally speaking to my parents.
>how often do you get outside, if at all?
Once a week to do the groceries. I felt like I needed to be "useful" to my parents.
>do you live independently or with parents?
I still live with my parents. We're not rich and there's no way I could afford to live by myself even now that I'm in college and saddled with debt.

 No.9297

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>how long have you been a NEET?
From 12-19, then again now from 22 until 27. 20-22 was a failed community college attempt, I'd like to go back but we're 5 years on now so who knows if my credits even still count.

>was there a reason for you becoming a NEET?

I come from a broken family, am autistic, have a brain injury, school system failed, family failed. As Ricky from Trailer Park Boys would say I don't have my grade 10, really I don't even have my grade 5, and people who don't have their grade 5? Well they're really screwed.

>what do you do all day?

Play online games with friends, mindlessly browse the net, when it's summer I ride my bike on a nearby trail and get ice cream. Winter really keeps me in and I hate traffic so I don't drive anywhere usually.

>what form of social interaction do you have, online and offline?

For regular social interaction just one friend that meets me at the local games shop where we play tabletop. I have two online friend groups, I didn't go to high school or middle school but I made friends online in skype group calls and teamspeak back in the 2010s. Somehow I still have those friends and somehow one group of them still uses teamspeak in 2025.

>how often do you get outside, if at all?

I go outside once a day or I go insane, not to shops or work or anything, just to mull around in the woods/park/trail and in the summer to the ice cream shop that's on the trail.

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 No.8054[Reply]

Does anyone feel fundamentally different from other people?

Like there's an insurmountable wall separating you from everyone else that you won't ever be able to overcome. Even with all the riches and a perfect life on the surface there would still be distance.

Ever since I was a kid I was the "weird kid." At home I was an unwanted child. It really just feels like I'm not supposed to exist, but do anyway, as some glitch in the matrix. And all the forces in the universe are desperately trying to bug fix my existence.

I feel very little loyalty towards the world, humanity, or society.
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 No.8208

anon..,,i relate to you anon. This iswhy in the first place i have decided self isolation is the next best thing after a few attempts. I cant say i fully hate my life though, id just prefer not to exist, sorry for getting off topic n all.

 No.8336

Can't quite put my finger on it but yes. I've always blamed it on being an immigrant even though I speak the native language without an accent and all my friends were natives growing up. I'm not able to articulate myself how I would want to. Writing is the closest thing I have.

In the end, although I'm not the dumbest in the world, I'm not smart enough to figure out what the underlying mechanism to this great problem with belonging is.

 No.9281

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>>8054
neurodivergence

 No.9288

Yeah, people just conclude I'm strange with minimal interaction but it's whatever, I'm at a point in life where being social is very tiring so I just don't try anymore.

 No.9290

This is called anderssein.



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 No.9282[Reply]

I feel like everyday I'm slowly regressing back to my hikki ways and I'm trying to stop it. I get burnt out and today I was supposed to have a meeting with my teacher and then go to my other class but I accidentally skipped both today because I felt too stressed to get out of bed, and I still have to go to my internship in about a few hours. I've also been on my phone a bit more than usual. Any advice on how to stop this constant wave of inactivity and stress?


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