/rec/ - Ex-NEET / Recovery

well, i shower, for one. 2024 was the year i showered the most in my entire life. we don't have a hot-tub anymore, though, which saddens me. maybe a hot-spring would fill the jacuzzi-shaped void.
i used to be severely underweight and anorexic. my 'feminine' features are returning, and my face is no longer gaunt. i can stand up to fry an egg without fainting. i can dress down without freezing to death in late spring/summer.
and i'm about to start going to therapy again. i don't know if i'll get much out of it. best that could come out of that is something that'd lessen my lethargy, or another reason to get up in the morning.
we've significantly downsized on pets. now, we only have four. there's a black cat we've had since childhood who walks into my room and nuzzles me. very soft and warm.

i now have obligations outside of the internet, too; however, i still struggle to socialize. i speak too slow, and too quiet, and nobody notices me when i'm talking to them. my interests are too obscure and/or technical to discuss with others without them getting bored, and my speech is monotone. despite this, people still put up with me. i don't know how.
i struggle to socialize with my parents, too. not as much as strangers, but there's nonetheless a frequency difference. i have a girlfriend, but ever since we moved it's been long-distance. she's the most i've ever clicked with someone – we're both on a different frequency than everyone around us, barring each other – she's still a full-on NEET, though, so i can't just mooch off of her (she also skipped high school completely).

i like to read. i think 2024-2025 have been the years i've read the most. i'm also horribly inattentive in my reading, and will typically alternate between ~5 books at once, but that's all good, i think..? i also want to invest in an e-reader for all my legitimately obtained PDFs.
and i'm brushing up on various programming languages (rust in particular is very fun). i think i'll work a temp job at a local antique shop, then try to find a more long-term job. my primary ikigai is that i want to further the field of meteorology. it's grandiose, but it keeps me alive.
where we grew up, it was very hot and wet (however landlocked it was). we got lots of T-storms, and, since we lived right at the western edge of dixie alley, even a few tornadoes. now that we've moved up north, it's all cold and dry – we just don't get events like december 10thPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>665
i shower too much. always afraid of being too moist or smelly or sticky. i can't wait until i can be a brain in a vat.

I graduated high school in 2018 and almost immediately became a neet since I didn't really have any plan or goals after high school, only taking a temporary break in the first half of 2021 to study a field I have no interest in but both my parents really insisted I should pursue it. We're not rich and they spent a lot of money, but I never ended up succeeding due to flimsy medical reasons, and thus continued being a neet for the next couple of years.

Just started my very first day at college studying a degree I have no interest in but only pursued because of the ease of landing a job; since I'm a neet with no work experience or skills, even landing a part time job at the shittiest of places is nigh impossible. I haven't really spoken to my high school friends since graduating and almost every single one of them is successful; two even graduated from the same college I'm currently attending (one graduating in 2021 and the other in 2024). It's pretty lonely here since everybody else seems to already have established friend groups, and I hate how all my classes are in the late afternoon.

Seeing the absurd costs for just one year at college is making me think twice about enrolling here due to the student loans and not wanting to financially burden my parents any further. But I know if I quit, then there really isn't future for me other than the rope, so it seems like I'll continue to study at college. The problem is whether I'd be able to successfully study or not, considering that the obscene amounts of studying (about 14 hours per day) that I did during my small break from neetdom I had in 2021 made me constantly day dream about doing a murder-suicide (though not seriously). Fingers crossed I'll be able to pull through these next three to four years by myself.

>>669
Nothing worth doing is easy anon, thaf's what makes being a neet so appealing.
I found the best way to meet new people is clubs (like school clubs) and volunteering.

It's going to feel awkward as hell the first time you do it but truat me when I say it gets easier. A little psychology trick here is that people
A.)Love to talk about themselves
B.)Join clubs for things that interest them
C.)are generally very excited when people want to learn about something they're passionate about.
This gets them talking to you and generally makes them predisposed to liking you.

I'd suggest you keep with school for now, even putting
>some higher education but no degree
On a resume is helpful for some jobs. I'm also sure your parents want you to get in a better spot so for god's sake take the help they're offering.

>t. Former socially retarded, neurotic neet who went to ATC school, washed out, then went from volunteering at an anime convention (because I couldn't afford the ticket) to being one of the volunteer coordinators because I played too much OpenTTD and got good at scheduling I guess.
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>>671
Appreciate the advice anon. On my second week and I'm already exhausted by it, haha. The carpark's always full so I have to park far away from the campus and all my classes, at the very least, end some time in the afternoon so I've been finding it difficult to find a job since all the part-time ones are either way above my league (eg. being an experienced or educated in a field/skill) or clash with my classes. It's also summer right now where I live so making the trek from campus to my car makes it even more exhausting, so I end up coming home too tired to do any homework or any of the required reading. I'm just glad that the workload isn't as bad as I had it in 2021 (at least not right now…)

>Not everything you do has to be in the pursue of money.

100%

>>656
What's this angel cat art from anon? Unique style I haven't seen before, would make a good game.

>>659
the low-res textures being contrasted with the high-fidelity uv maps is really cool. i've been wanting to get into modelling for a while. what do you guys think of my birba?

>>660
I'd say you're already pretty into modelling! You're birba looks great.

A bit of an update:

Thanks all for the kind words and advice. I cringed pretty hard rereading my epic self pity rant here lol. Thanks uboa for the advice and taking the time to read my slop lol.

I've realized recently how much of a fair weather fan I am when it comes to my own life. When I'm in the dumps I can't seem to get out (see the parent post), but when I'm happy I might as well be floating. I can't imagine thinking any of the stuff I did 4 weeks ago right now.

The spring semester has been going really well. I'm making new friends, exercising a lot, doing my HW and reading a ton, and praying/reading the bible every day. I also joined that self-defense club and it's been unexpectedly fun so far. Please send me ur positive energy /rec/anons, I really want to keep up what I've got going.

There's this cute girl who's friends with a new friend of mine. She's in the same class as us, but I haven't talked to her much even though we sit in the same area and have a mutual friend. I get pretty obsessive about the people I like and they start to take up like 10% of my waking thoughts, and the same thing is happening with this girl, but unlike the other times I think I might have Jesus encouraging me for this one, because something kind of crazy happened tonight.

I was at the dining hall sitting outside and for some reason I thought to myself "If that girl is in the dining hall when I go inside to put my dishes away I'm going to go talk to her one-on-one."

Sure enough when I went back inside she was there. No joke. I did like 5 circles around the hall before I steeled myself to talk to her. I literally mentally said to myself: "Come on dude, Trust Jesus, this is a gift, just do it, just go talk to her." and was finally able to drag myself over to her. We had a normal conversation about a shared class and she gave me her number and I almost had a nervous breakdown leaving the dining hall afterwards lol. It's been really long since I've had a real crush and I'm still kind of freaking out over it.

>>655
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im so sorry about your situation. I dont know how to advise you about your depression and actual situation, but I can advise you about your phone usage. An app that really helped me to get trough my phone addiction is "Digital Detox" Its available on google play. Basically all it does it blocks your phone for a determined hour of time, so you can try to focus in other things. The app offers you some emergency buttons while blocked in case of an emergency (like calling someone or something) If you want to give up and unlock the phone before the determined amount of time, you will have to pay two dollars, or even more if you change the amount in the settings. Hope this helps, wish you the best.

no you're not

Boo.

I'm an ex-NEET but I use the other board because there's more to talk about

>>636
Made in Abyss is one of my favorite series, I'm glad to hear you enjoyed it. Best of luck with everything dog.

Made in Abyss is one of my favorite series, I'm glad to hear you enjoyed it. Best of luck with everything dog.

> It was one of the most tragically gorgeous things I've ever seen…even when I get deeply depressed I know it could always be worse…I think it's just recovering from the past few years; not to get too personal on here but I was hospitalized and immobile for a good part of last year and early this year and living in an abandoned house with a few friends..we all made it on to another place and everyone I know from that time is doing relatively okay. The world at large is just a lot of suffering…daily I see my friends and strangers going through it as Im sure you've experienced yourself. We can't give up, can we? or we SHOULDN'T i'll say…

>>634
>>638
interesting thread and pardon my autism but can you please be mindful of the way you use arrows for any anon passing by's sake? and you're doing it backwards too
>arrows like this >>>
are normally just for quoting other people, this thread's been hard to follow the conversation in because you're switching the perspectives like crazy
also you don't have to include your email in the email field, just letting you know as well. good luck in your travels and lack of!

yeah i dont care about grammar im sorry its bugging you but if its confusing you idk, scroll elsewhere? im talking about how i nearly died and was hospitalized my spelling / punctuation / perspective is fragmented have a nice day

>>638
I'm interested in hearing more about your stay in the abandoned building. I have been close to entering that kind of life to escape a bad family. Any survival tips would be good. Also you should read / watch the anime of shoujo shuumatsu ryokou if you haven't.

>>640
Almost everyone here has a tragic story. Anon was politely trying to help you intergrate into board culture. If there's some reason you can't format things properly that's fine, but don't be rude about it.

Its difficult, but you can get used to going to the super duper mart and bakery by yourself. You just have to push yourself and have some sanity maintainance tactics. Its like taking a bath, you test the waters first and slowly get used to it through gradual exposure. Actually, going to the super duper mart is pretty easy because those places are faceless and transitory. The hard part is when you get a job or go to college and end up meeting people who know you on a day to day basis and trying not to mess that up, falling back into being a hiki or becoming paranoid schizo.

thank youu… i feel better with that. i think you're right. i should definitely find something to regulate my emotions… i'm scared of freaking out when i find a job, too. i need to stay focused on the reason i HAVE to work… thanks!

the social anxiety melts away when you're sleep deprived/intoxicated

>>628
just go on autismbux lol, neet out again. see if your parents will pay you to do jobs around the house for them. or maybe do onlyfans lol. if you're lonely at work anyhoo you're much better off neeting out. if you want some sense of companionship play some ttrpgs or tcgs. or use autismbux to hire some supportfags to hang out with you.

one day chris kempczinski will be in a gas chamber.

>>629
Is it so easy to "just" get some?

>>630
in oceania regions it is, the government is basically handing out retard diplomas. might be harder in america but if so i still think you should find a different job. as a kid i remember my sister working at mcdonalds and it seemed fucking awful. i genuinely do think you need a hobby and a job is really the only way into that. pokemon cards are expensive

Save up for your move & whatever education or certs you want to do as a career, otherwise you'll just get stuck in this Mcdonalds-esque situation over n over again and never have money or real experience. Now that u left ur n33tshit you need to figure out what you want to do, this is what u should be figuring out Right Now

obv dont quit your job unless you have another lined up. Also stop calling yourself autistic and you might stop acting autistic. Idc if you got diagnosed

>>302
Hi!

> What are you working as?
Software engineer in a local IT company. The coolest thing is that I'm writing code in the language I like, and that's why I even applied.

> Are you doing the same exercises as before?
Nope! I actually read up on it a bit and now are doing an amalgamation of exercises from this video. There are some other exercises as well (mostly for my buttocks) and I had to skip on some exercises after which my legs and my damaged arm hurt too much. But in general the idea is this. If you have some other exercises I might want to try, I would be very glad to hear them too, and I might try to incorporate them into my daily regimen!
https://youtu.be/vc1E5CfRfos
I'm not doing those too intensively though, as I don't really like exercises and do not plan or want to build any muscle, just want to keep my body in shape.

> Even though it is kinda strange to walk around with no idea what is going on.
I had no idea what was going on in my country for the most of my life. But now it is actually quite hard to miss on those, and I fail myself and do read them quite frequently anyway. Even though I do try to limit it.

> I am struggling lately.
What happened?

>>323
Sounds great, I am glad to hear that you like it. So you are working and going to university at the same time? Certainly a lot to do. I assume the degree you picked up again is programming engineering?

Interesting video, I never looked into all the things you can do without any tools at all. Just 3 weeks ago I decided not to go to the gym anymore, because I just couldn't stand the noise there any longer, radio running the entire time, a lot of people around, even a tv with sports turned on. I changed to working out at home again, but searched for new exercises as well. Right now I am trying out exercising with dumbbells, there is a lot of variety too.
Any reason why you are training buttocks especially hard? I do that too for my back, because I now it is not in a good shape.

This was exactly the other way around for me, I followed very closely what is going on but stopped somewhere in 2018 because it was always only negative, sad, frustrating and so on. I just didn't want to read all of that negativity anymore. I have to say that I do feel better since I don't know anything about all the happenings anymore.

Last time we talked I quit my job and was trying out new things like mailman. After all the different ideas didn't appeal to me at the end, I applied for accounting again. Unfortunately I landed the worst job I had so far. The organization and communication is equals zero, the traffic agonizing, the work boring and tedious, the industrial sector a lot of stress, the company owned by a larger one that dictated everything and doesn't listen to anything, the list goes on and on. My mental health once again went downhill very fast and so hard that I take antidepressants again. Luckily the job is dated to end on the 31.12.2021, they wanted to keep me but I said no.
I truly fear that I only can get better if I don't work in an office anymore, next year I will try out something else once again, I have a good feeling about it this time.

Kind of scary to read what I was writing here before. (But maybe I will find something in me to do it later).

>>334
Very-very-very-very-very sorry! For not responding. I knew that I should, but for some reason I was running away from many things (this one including), even though they were constantly on my mind!

Right now I am at a point (notwithstanding it being 4AM) where things are not very good. But I will manage, I will recover and hopefully I will share parts of it here.

>>621
Take your time, I am still here. Just glad to see that you are alive. Thought you went to a prostest and vanished because of that.

I'm working. On what might calling, a "Selfed Improvements". Im staredr Playing ultrakill, and now I keep trying to get an S Rank on Time for all the Things I Do. LLike. Showering Or Getting Dresed.. I need those points. Also trying TO computer and reading In 10 minute intervals. Maximising my knowledge of our earths Lore and worldbuilding by reading politics Book. You could Sqay Im LOcked IN !!!! ! Hello hi

>>425
I should mention, I was also really anxious on the first time I asked for a job at a computer store. Remember to collect yourselves before doing stuff like this, I got too excited and didn't think of it. Maybe I would've gotten the job perhaps? But that's not what I'll think of right now. I can't control everything and that's fine.

(also, correction I meant to reply to 424 on the second reply. to clear confusion)

>>417

>but we all get better with practice right?

Yes we do. I'm glad I know this first hand. I hope I've helped or motivated some of you to do so as well

>>250
Hope life is going well for you textile anon

>>571
It couldn't be going worse anon

>>606
Wanna talk about it friend?

Got a part time job that is very decent and things seem to be going in the right direction. I have to deal with my parents asking me to get started on my drivers license, not gonna do that until my mind is stable enough.

Months ago I fell in love with someone online but we cant date because of distance, it is quite difficult having to accept that i can only be friends with them but this relationship is too precious to lose and if I tried to get them out of my life I would lose my only my social circle.

While adult life is scary and the future feels unpredictable I encourauge all of you anons to keep going step by step, I promise you that we can find happiness.