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I guess i'm not technically a neet, since im posting this in school right now, but I am a hikkimori (or atleast the most I can be at my age) I cant stand people, I feel repulsed being here at all. My friend on skype who is in his 3rd year training to become a psychologist thinks that I have schizotypal personality disorder (basically paranoid schizophrenia but now as bad) Im not sure why im writing this other than to not want to freak out being aorund people. General complaint thread I guess. I told my mom i have bad anxiety about 4 months ago (I havent told her about the delusions and paranoia or frequency) I keep asking her to take me to a psychologist because 3 months ago she called to see if insurance would cover the cost (they cover it all) yet I still havent gone. My parents want me to get a summer job yet I have done that before and I am not in a place for that level of responisbility and work I would have breakdowns all the time. I just want to recieve Neetbux when im an adult and have them never know so they wont be so dissapointed. They are good people but they just dont understand me or the things im dealing with (and probably dont believe them) This place is one of the few nooks and crannys on the web where I dont hate people, so thanks for that and this community. I really dont know why i wrote this but it atleast gave me something to do. sorry. thanks for listening