No.7999
I'm a good kid, I'm a real good kid, but this one bad break fucking RUINED ME. Now I can't do shit, everything's shit, I AM SHIT. I can't write a paper to save my life. But I want to! I want to prove that I can! Let me do anything else please!
I have been cleaning my house, I've done the dishes everyday, done my laundry, done all this goody good nice stuff that I would usually ignore, plodding around looking for ANYTHING to do. Anything but that god-forsaken paper, cause I just can't do it. I feel like it's impossible, and each moment I'm just inching towards failing. I feel like this is unfair? How could this happen to me? IM A GOOD KID IM TELLING YOU. Stupid Friday, stupid weekend, stupid paper, I've tried to stay up on Sunday and Monday to do this, and I just gave up around 5 AM both times. I woke up today on Tuesday at 1 PM, And I still haven't done that paper. I know I'm turning back to how I was before, and I can't fight it, I'm too scared to go back, I wanna stay where it's safe, even though it hurts me in a way I don't understand. I can't be strong anymore.
I really messed up real bad this time. So someone just fucking AAIHUUGGHHH tell me the magic words, how can I fix myself before I turn back into something I don't like. I'm sorry.
No.8000
It's all gone. I didn't save it. And now it's gone. It doesn't even feel that unfair, I just don't want to go back.
No.8001
>>7999You accept that you have fucked up and think about what needs to change for you not to fuck up but prosper instead. There is not a single silver bullet other than "Get supportive friends."
No.8002
>>8001It's Valentine's Day and I'm worried out of my mind, I don't know how bad the repercussions are gonna be. But honestly last night, I just accepted it, and I slept like a baby. It's nice having a somewhat clear mind and being on somewhat solid ground. I've been running around trying to get all these things done, and it just hurting me.
I know it's selfish but I gotta put myself first. Whatever happens happens, Happy Valentine's mates <3
No.8003
take it a step at a time and stop being gay, one paper isn't gonna be the end of it
