/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

as an autistic person who needs a fair bit of support still, yeah I get this. It’s super hard to clean my room, take care of myself and help others, mainly because my brain just won’t let me. It’s a huge fear of mine that I’ll have to fend for myself one day because I just don’t know how to do it. Too thankful to my family as they continue to support me

As someone who gets super anxious about losing the insane support crutch my family gives me, I also understand this. I believe I could mainly live independently if needed, as my lifestyle is already almost entirely independent, but just knowing that this crutch exists keeps a torrential floods worth of anxiety pertaining to the topic at bay. The concept of my family not being in my life, whether by death or else wise, also fills me with anxiety and foresight grief.
I deal with it by simply not entertaining the thoughts about it, as thinking about it makes me want to cry.

>>7623
>>7624

Thanks for responding. It's kind of a relief to know I'm not alone there.

I wish I could stop thinking about this- unfortunately, I tend to have intrusive thoughts that revolve around it.

Hey Anon, i know you’re still with us even after only 30 days…. but you’re not alone

Please hear me out. You’re not alone out there. I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety for years, while I have made progress in recovering over the past 3 years, it’s still tough. I never figured out what I wanted to do in life, I never liked the education system here in the US so I saw no point in attending university either.

I graduated from hs almost 6 years ago and I’ve felt lost since, it’s what I kept telling myself. Sure I was able to make some money and everything, but I felt empty, I felt repulsed by myself because I didn’t know what I wanted to do in this life.

I still keep in contact with some friends and was introduced to new people through them, but god I feel embarrassed being with them sometimes because of my situation. Sometimes I don’t see them for months at a time, yet they welcome me with open arms every time. I still live with my parents of course, it’s normal in most cultures worldwide to do so so I’m really grateful that they’ve helped support me.

Can I be able to live independently? i don’t know, but i’m open to getting my own place one day if i can be able to afford it.

It was a few months ago where I decided I should do something more and figure out something…a stable income in a remote position is all I’m looking for.

I honestly do like being outside and being social when I can. I went to the beach today and walking down the path and seeing the people there make me realize how much I really do love the world and my life in general. My judgment was so clouded because of my negative thought patterns about myself that going out and looking at the world in this bigger picture really helps me.

I hope you’re doing good anon and I hope your situation improves. I used to hang around other hikki/neet servers on discord, but idk what happened to a lot of the people there.

As I’m typing this I have an opportunity to get a remote gig with a somewhat stable income…wish me the best of luck please.

Just know that it’s never too late to make a change in your life. We’re both young with our whole lives ahead of us after all… please take care. I don’t know who else is reading this, but if you are…take care too.

>>7656
I don't know what else to say, but sincerely: thank you for this, anon. I appreciate hearing about your situation and wish you the best of luck. I apologize if the way I word this post is awkward; not great at expressing my feelings through text. Feels like people don't respond to my posts as a result.

You're correct- I'm still here after thirty days. Back in 2016, the summer after graduating, I got into Yume Nikki. That lead down a rabbit hole where I started playing the fangames: Yume 2kki first, then .flow, and Miserere. I liked 2kki the most- it was on a larger scale and more difficult to play, but I really loved what uboachan did with it. After that, I started participating in different boards. There was one thread in which I recieved harassment, and it made me not want to go on here much- this happened a year before YNDD came out. To be honest, the controversy surrounding its release contributed to that. I enjoyed playing the remake, but never voiced it because people here got incensed over basic discussion. Guess I can talk about it now that's died down.

>>7657
I stopped going on ubuu for a few years, and tried to finish college while distancing myself from drama. That worked out for the most part. It helped me to focus on what's important, and do things I enjoyed more often: reading, drawing, listening to music. Elsewhere, I create artwork and write stories (picrel). YN inspired me to make my own game, as well- I'm planning to release an RPG horror title in the future, hopefully when I find steady income.

You can see some of my other inspirations in this recommendation thread: >>>/hikki/7167

I'm the OP- if anyone here wants to share media they like but is nervous to do that, feel free to contribute. Maybe you'll find a new series you like.

>>7658
What you said resonated with me. I've been feeling empty, in the current job I work (retail) and at home. People are so far away, like everyone's vanished. But it's important to try, just as it's important to appreciate the little things in life. For the longest time, I wasn't able to see that.

To become independent would be an amazing thing. On some level, I still feel like I'll never be able to achieve that, much less find roommates. Whenever I've applied to full-time positions I've gotten rejection letters saying I need more experience. However, I had an interview over the phone last week, so hopefully that will lead to further employment. I'm trying to spend more time with friends and family as well, even if it's just on discord.

As for where the hikki/neets went, they probably moved on with their lives to do other things, or weren't able to find happiness. Those spaces are dead nowdays, with sporadic activity. Users here seem to be participating on and off.

Same to you, anon. Please take care.