/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

Existence isn't enjoyable, but it'd probably be even more painful if I had to interact with people or wageslave every day.

I used to have a very negative outlook on life and I actually considered ending it all this year, but upon reflection I realized that I want to live a full life filled with beautiful experiences.

Like you I used to believe that I wanted to be left alone because I didn't like people, but through introspection I've come to the conclusion that everything in my life has been a reflection of my inner state of mind. What I believed manifested itself into my reality. I died this year and I am revived and all I feel now is a great love for everything both inside and without.

Experiencing life as a hikkiNEET wasn't my true desire and all I did every day was staving off the depression and boredom caused by my negative thoughts and beliefs, fostered by denying who I am and not looking within. I desire an easygoing life where I don't spend most of my time slaving away at a job I don't want and is full of beautiful experiences that I get to share with the ones I love.

I am fully convinced that there is a way out of a mundane life filled with worries and doubts. I have already found mine and I know you will find yours in due time. There have been subtle signs all throughout my life trying to tell me how to find my way. I didn't really listen, but now that I do everything makes sense and I see it all in a new light.

It takes time for seeds to sprout, but in my personal experience I'm already getting new signs of life. I keep watering my tree of life and I know that one day it will grow into my living desire. Do like the patient farmer and give your seeds its daily love and eventually you will receive your reward.

moar positivity pls

Honestly my biggest issue with being hiki is that I'm so incredibly lonely, I know it's frowned upon to desire friends as a hiki but I guess it's biologically ingrained in me as a social animal, like the desire for food and water, even when I try to make online friends I can't figure out what to say and they slowly stop answering me, in public groups like on Discord I am almost always ignored, or I just end up spamming memes to others, it's hardly a productive or meaningful friendship, obviously IRL is even worse as a hiki, I wouldn't even know where to go to meet like minded people if I could leave my house anyway.

I'm not an incel either, I don't want a to gf because I'm asexual (probably because of the autism?), I just want a real connection with anyone.

I'm geting the impression I'm not alone in how I feel in this thread, because I think my main source of pessimism about being a hikki is that I, on a deep level, don't really want to be in this state. A mix of mental and physical illness means that, even if during some short periods of my life I am capable of working and going outside more, life as a hikki is technically the better option for my overall health and comfort.

It's selfish, but it's how I feel. I try to be as grateful as a hikki could possibly be for having the ability to be in this situation, even if it's not what I'd want in an ideal life.

As an aside, at least I have plenty of time to sit and enjoy media, and I try to use that as a jumping point for the few social interactions I have. Being able to recommend an album to one of my few remaining friends, or an anime to my younger siblings, feels pretty nice at times. I wouldn't have the energy to do anything but work and sleep if I still had a job.

I like being a hikki but it can be really boring, especially after a decade. That's my only problem with it.

>>6955
hello?

>>6955
after a decade?!

how old are you!

>>6957
you can be a hikki for that long and still be pretty young

>>6958
true words. I've almost always "practically" been a hikki from a young age.

>>6956
anonymous soulmate?!

>>6960
If you're The One, you can meet me in the abandoned Uboachan IRC channel.

I have mixed feeling about this, I always experience positive and negatives things while being unemployed.
As a hikkineet I am way more relaxed, optimistic, friendlier and more social. Then I have the time to sleep as much as I need, can spend my time how I want and can therefore fill it with stuff I like. Other anons said that they are getting lonely and this is unfortunately the case for me too, sooner or later I get the urge to interact with somebody. Furthermore I get bored very quickly, after not even a year I am bored to no end, I just don't know what to do with all that time.
Overall I feel way better as a hikkineet, I enjoy doing things, have motivation to do something, and have a relaxed, optimistic and friendly attitude, I even would like to deal with people. The downside is that I don't have anybody though, so I just end up being lonely and being alone anyway. Besides that I get bored very fast, this is when I start to apply for work again.
Usually I start working somewhere and bring that attitude and mindset with me, that I build up from being a hikkineet. People love that and are always very satisfied with me. The problem is that it crumbles very fast due to the work environment. I end up being annoyed, unmotivated, tired, and depressed, which leads me to quit and the cycle starting anew.
I wonder if I would stop applying if I would be able to find hobbies/interests/passions, it would be great to stop fucking up my own wellbeing.

>>6952
Very cute pino, I should rewatch the show one day.
Being grateful is good way to go, it always helps me a lot. Nothing is to be taken as granted. Unfortunately I am only sleeping and working too, when I have a job. It just drains all my energy, which leads me to crumble.

>>6951
Having a meaningful connection is something I wish for, it hurts to experience again and again how shallow the connections are irl. The only places with likeminded people I know are small and slow imageboards, I hope they will exist as long as I life. Having a gf also drains me from all of my energy, not a chance that I want that again.

>>6961

who are you

you are not going to trick me and get me into trouble. i am not a fool.

please

come back

franatically-compulsively checking an imageboard is not good for my mental health so i will be trying to switch off for a while…

i ll still be on irc

>>6966
>emacs
>qutebrowser (the divs lol)
why?

oh

where are you

ishikawa

my little angel

let me be your バトー ブッテツ

i will forever be your most utmost servant nantaimori




ishikawa

I have no real life or online friends and am incredibly grateful for my position. Putting up with other people induces unnecessary suffering (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hedgehog%27s_dilemma). Moreover, I suspect that having friends can spread conformity/mainstream cultural "memes" in a person.
I assume that it works both ways: The people who are more likely to have friends tend to be more hive minded because they can find people who they can relate to in the first place, and in turn, interacting with others who are laymen makes one gradually become more mainstream/conformist because of the diffusion of those commonplace memes.

>>7019
>Moreover, I suspect that having friends can spread conformity/mainstream cultural "memes" in a person.
I believe it's related to the automaton like behavior of most people. People absorb input from their environment, filter it through their ego and then react and form beliefs based on that data. If a person discovers this pattern, the environment loses its control over the mind and the true self regains its power.
Having no friends means less input from the world, but thanks to the Internet, it doesn't really make much of a difference these days, as friendless individuals are constantly subjected to outside influences via the Internet.

I wish I could give all of you a hug, seriously
I've been trying to hug my dad at least once each day
Anyways if anyone needs someone to talk to
jay@greenmail.net
and we could be penpals
I've been looking at a lot of philosophy lately

being a hikkineet is like an introverted psychopath thing