/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>>5564
>05/28/19
hey you posted on my birthday

>my family's stares and their opinions about me
id tell you to distance yourself but youre living with them, arent you?

>the shame that is my existence
what's shameful about not talking to people? hell, what's shameful about being a loser? it just is? nothings right or wrong, or shameful or heroic because they're all arbitrary. cogito ergo sum, thats the only thing you know for sure.
if you're going to base your life on something arbritrary, which when we come down to it, all moral systems or lack thereof are, at least make the choice yourself.

>suicide might be a pussy move when there's a chance that your life will get better
this makes it seem like you're basing it on hedonism i.e. maximising happiness. in that case, what gives you happiness? im gonna sound like one of those carpe diem shills but fuck it, why aren't you doing that?

>inb4 "nothing gives you happiness"
you're not thinking hard enough. cocaine doesnt give you happiness? meth leaves you undeterred? though to be fair, they're hard to get for aspies like us, i myself have never done any of those things. you get the idea however, right?

there probably arent video games in the afterlife even if there is one

>>5564
If nothing matters, why fear the opinion or judgement of your parents or those around you?

Use this mindset to start somewhere with talking or socializing, maybe pickup a few hobbies?

If you're in top 100, I must be in top 10. The way you write is articulate enough to look like there's a normal person behind the screen.

>>5585
As if being reductive adds to the thread.
Social anxiety isn’t a tool to judge people.

If socializing irl is difficult, then how about gradually ramping up the complexity of your online interactions until they mirror irl socializing? Going from text typing to voice chatting to eventually video calls with people you trust in a comfortable community can help. As much as everyone on the boards shits on it, discord is pretty good alongside vrchat and other chat games.

It’s really difficult to restart a negative social history with any person, even more so with a family member. Finding new people to be with is always preferable to solitude, but it’s just as hard. Meeting online friends irl or going to groups centred around common interest after exchanging a few emails with members is possible, but isn’t a one-size-fits-all method.

Finding a medium of expression, whether it be verbally, visually, a blog, or whatever works in time, is what I want to stress. Alongside this, actively looking at literature and arts as a mirror to learn more about yourself is helpful in giving yourself the ammunition and motive to express, as well as acting as a hobby.

Even if i meet my old friends now how should I act ? Never felt like this but i feel anxious to meet them. I can't imagine how awkward it will be. I've spend four months in my house lying my patent that I will home study cause I don't like going out anymore and now I'm afraid to go out, even to grocery store..

>>5610
Get used to going out and doing things first (buying things, ordering food etc.), which should only take a couple of days. While you're doing that message them online or something. Make up some bullshit about forgetting a teachers name that you need to remember in case you decide to apply for university and need to mention it in your application, then continue the conversation.

Also, you really don't need to fill out every field when you post here. Read the rules/FAQ.

>>5564
Same here man. The crippling shame and despair of being incapable of socializing with others and being stuck in a room everyday. Don't rope, come join the hiki server man https://discord.gg/ZYp6mb

>>5633
What an awful way to advertise your diksword.