/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

>I genuinely do think men should be shot.
Why? Because they are beholden to the same limiting standards as you or thrive within them? There's a lot worse things out there than societal or parental shame. Be in any heavy Islamic country, and you don't just get the shame but also the high probability of dying or jailed simply for being who you are. I have gay friends in Islamic countries who tell me horror stories. People always tell me how oppressive western countries are or how limiting the societal roles are within, which there are some fair points but a lot of it seems overblown compared to the explicit danger I have seen others face, something that not even your view of how "backwards" Australia is can compare to.

I realize this might be coming off as deflection and a side tangent, but I do understand your feelings and attitude. But I think saying that men should be shot for existing is a misdirection of the real issue at play here: you feeling limited in your circumstance to express yourself and are filling that void with youtube videos, self-philosophizing, and aggressively getting into social issues you don't fully comprehend.

You hate your parent's pussy attitude of not letting you call people retards but also resent them and society for not letting you shave your legs.

In the words of cancer twitter users: "Pick a struggle" because I can assure you that you will be hard pressed to find people who will be okay with you shaving your legs yet not have a massive hatred of you for saying "slurs" (which, to me, are just meaningless words we say when we are angry, coping, or trying to be humorous). Sure they are not something you would want to say in public and context matters, but people give words too much energy towards nowadays and not actions. Is some edgy kid saying a edgy word online really as much as a pressing issue as limited access to healthcare? Sure it may contribute to bigoted attitudes but I have a painful pill to swallow: there are more things at play to construct systems designed to reduce mobility than just an insult. But this is something you should consider because you'll come across a lot of people who will accept one part of you but throughly disown you for another. Much more than your parents, who will be annoying but most just want to see their kids succeed and you can always prove them wrong later with your own success in life. They are the one area that can give a bit of grace in terms of relations of people unless you are actively malicious to them or they are actually abusive (and not just "they said i look gay once" but actual "i'll throw you out, rape or beat you if you don't comply with my demands")

But furthermore, why do you, as an adult, give them that sort of power be it society or your parents? And how does it tie into men needed to be killed. I assume that since you watch Moon Channel of all things you are probably aligned left wing and are using their vernacular and ideology to incorporate into finding belonging. It's human to adjust tone for audiences every once and a while, but I feel a great sense of unease that many people immediately jump to the "ism"s (ie terms and phrases colloquially used within these settings) and say grand, bold but ultimately performative statements that they assume would get claps from the audience but just comes out of leftfield and feels forced into things (ie like a conservative ranting about how a baseball team sucks then shoehorning dei into it or a leftist ranting how their soda tastes bad then shoehorning anti-capitalist or pro-palestine messaging). This honestly never has the intended effect one thinks it might have and just comes across as naïvely trying tie in something irrelevant to your initial point to gain approval without having people critically engage with your points because you signaled your on their side. Something I notice a lot in people my age or younger thats annoyingly similar to boomers but on another side of the spectrum. Stop thinking like a politician and start thinking like a human first, we aren't twitter or reddit. We exist outside that scope for a reason. Hell even me using my trip I dislike but it makes it much easier to find what I posted and not accidentally reply to myself.

Overall, I think you would benefit a bit from doing some soul searching and analyzing your actual core values and beliefs until they become a consistent framework rather than an amalgamation of whatever you see online or hear in certain circles, being for or against said things. One of the biggest mistakes people make today is becoming more radical because the world is more radical. If you want to become radical you can, but you first need a framework that exists outside the discourse and comes from within yourself. Otherwise, you probably aren't suited for it. Not everyond needs to be a politician level consistency and rigidity on their beliefs. I think it is also important to ground yourself and not seek impossible highs that will land you in the lowest lows. You are an individual first and foremost. There's caring for a collective you admire and then there's becoming so entrenched that you become malleable to them and shape yourself towards them.

I think we can all benefit from this sort of thing. People nowadays are far too radical without any sort of direction, influenced by social media algorithms and seeking approval or rejection of the media machine hellscape we exist within. I am no saint in this regard, but recognizing the signs can change things for the better and is a good first step.

Societal pressures can be hard, so I stress that I get where you are coming from. The thing you said about not conforming or being put on a pedestal is a valid concern, I have had similar thoughts myself. But at the end of the day, approval within a system, friend group, family, online community, whatever doesn't matter if you can't approve yourself. And those other pressures seem almost trivial compared to the beast of self-approval and building self-esteem.

>>10042
Holy " wall of text ", but I appreciate the reply i guess.

I don't really get what you mean by the third paragraph, and I'm too scared at cringing at past me's painfully lame writing to re-read what I wrote, but I feel like you're interpreting things maybe a little too politically? (Once again that sounds really retarded but do you get what I mean?)

I guess i'm just generally pissed off and angry without any specific source other than " things suck and are bad ", so I think maybe I talked a little bit too much about " ideology " or whatever in the OP to communicate that. I don't know much about moon channel, that video just popped up and I was really interested in that subject. Like, a lot of nahtzees and even just generally unsavoury 4channers really seem to like moe outside of being pedophiles, and I was really curious as to how that worked.

I also think maybe I sound like a cringe tranny or maybe a faggot to you a little bit? correct me if I'm wrong, but you seem to think I'm fucking gay (homosexual), and that's definitely not my le hecking struggle or whatever. I don't know.

Honestly, I think real people are kind of disgusting, but women are generally more appealing to look at than men, at least south east asians and non-blonde europeans. I know that comes across as weird and objectifying, but I really don't know how else to put it. I guess the " kill all men " does seem kind of twitter, but it's not coming from that sort of place in my heart. Generally, people are kind of gross I guess. I watch porn on social media I suppose, but mostly it's just weird retarded fetish content done by an amateur. I don't even jack off. Having wet dreams sucks but I physically feel nothing from jonkling it, even when I'm like, horny or whatever.

Sorry, that's way too much information, but I guess I'm trying to communicate that I'm not being performative or psychosexual. I don't think I really resent men for being happy as men. I just think it's really gross that the existance of " man " as a societal niche with the connotations it carries is allowed in any sort of culture, and, by extension, it's gross that people are happy in that role, if that makes sense.

It's not really " societal shame " from being le different, per se, I just wish I looked different enough that I wouldn't have to want to change. (I've basically given up on my physical appearance at this point.)
I guess there are cool men. Kaito Momota is cool. Seccom-Masada-Sensei is cool. Takuto Maruki, GD Colon and Wirtual are cool. I don't mind Jacksepticeye. But obviously all of those people are fictional.

I think maybe things would be easier if I didn't look like the mother of all jews. It's, like, laughably bad.

I guess maybe I could be a tranny. Even before being retarded and cringe, I was an extremely effeminate child, and I did have an incredibly cringe transtrending phase. I'm taller than my dad now, and incredibly broad across the shoulders. I also play MTG, Counter-Strike, Trackmania, and Ultrakill, and I'd rather kill myself than become a walking stereotype, or some kind of weird slimy autistic orc brick. So I've got it rough in all regards. I'm scared of needles, and I'd probably hang myself if my parents found out. They might actually laugh at me.

My mother made a random, seemingly unprompted joke about me being a tranny, so maybe I have repper phrenology. Who knows.

I guess there's not much in my life that gives me meaning.
Things would be much easier if I had a friend, but at my age, most girls assume you're trying to flirt with them, or are extremely vapid and uninteresting, and most guys who share my interests are genuinely retarded, and normies genuinely don't deserve human rights, so, uh, yeah.
I took up skateboarding again briefly, partially for the social aspect, and I was kind of surprised that social groups can even exist amongst those sorts of communities, given that they exist almost entirely of actual normfags. Maybe no matter how open and cheerful I am, or no matter how much I try and sculpt myself to other people's interests, there's just a persistent aura of misery and judginess around me. I guess I could get in contact with some of my friends from when I was like, a super young teenager, but the only one who responded (through her mother contacting mine, point and laugh, I know) is apparently also a terminally lonely hikkikomori who's explicitly said she doesn't want friends. So, uh, ye.
I'm also worried that if I did make a friend my misery would emanate from me and I would end up pushing them away.

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>>10043

I've considered getting a job to fund my Magic problem, but my last attempt was so disastrous that my mother recommended I leave it off my resume entirely. Rough. I could always go back to school, but my parents, both teachers, think a) I'm too much of a delinquent and b) the education system sucks donkey dong.

I'm probably the most lonely person on earth, proportionate to the number of supposed social interactions I have. I think I'm also really " snarky " to those who I think are lesser than me, and I'm by nature a fairly stormy personality, so it's kind of hard to think of myself as a hikkineet so much as a generally unlikeable failure.

I wish there was a machine to make my personality like Ralsei or Kaede Akamatsu (persistent and cheery), or even someone like Chell, Gordon Freeman, or Madotsuki (stoical and convicted), but I think I'm just not a good enough person to change on my own.

Thanks for the reply, even if I don't really understand most of it (i may be stupid). But, I can tell you have a good heart. You're basically the only good member of staff. I would put probably put myself in an sks-ifying machine if I could, haha.

What video games do you recommend? I'm finishing a replay of the last two chapters of Danganronpa V3 at the moment.

I hate being a moid. I am a moid. I will never be anything other than an autistic loser moid. I hate being a moid.

>>10045
Perhaps you shouldn't, I mean, you're stuck with yourself forever, you may as well try to see the good side.

>>10045
op here i have no idea who this nigga is

>>10045
umayumesume nikki

I didn't get the chance to read this, but I wonder what it was that I said that provoked such an angry response? Seems a bit over the top, if you ask me…

>>10053
You were talking about men being pointless and reddit radfem genetic modification fantasy.
You got a over the top hostile response.
Neither are welcome in this site, frankly, this whole thread's anti male fixation is disgusting and if it keeps going it should be deleted.

The poster/s that hate men for whatever issues they have need to do some soul searching and learn acountability instead of shifting the blame in such a childish way.