/hikki/ - NEET / Advice

i got fired from my FUCKASS GAY ASS PIZZA DELIVERY JOB by my INDIAN boss for no fucking reason. he knew that i was a neet so i think his tiny shriveled shitskin mind kept creating confirmation biases about me whenever i did something even remotely wrong. i'm exhausted and tired and i feel like a failure, but i feel a lot better now that i'm free of responsibility. is that bad of me? i'm getting my alcohol serving license, going to apply for a role in a japanese restaurant in the city, but i don't even know if i'm ready to work. i feel like such a failure, and i don't even know what having a job would give me. it's not going to make me friends, or fix my agp, or even fulfill me all that much. life in australia is an endless cycle of suburban misery. i'm so miserable that i've sort of gone past depression and back into not caring, if that makes sense. genuinely what do i even do